Roller Coaster

My mood has been a freaking roller coaster today. Really tired. Been sleeping really badly the last months. I've been happy, angry, sad, zero'd. Most of all tired and longing for a big hug from my love.

Starting to use Bloggy.se a lot, so I kinda forget about writing here. I would love to have a mix of this blog and bloggy.se. I wanna write a bit more than 148 characters but not necessarily a 1000. I wanna be able to add pictures, music and videos and also by mobile phone. Create something with best of both worlds!

Worried. I'm worried. My lovely host mum Lizzie in Australia hasnt been replying any of my emails the last three months. I wonder if something has happened. I truely hope not. Paul hasnt answered on his phone or email for months either. Everyone else gets my messages. What's wrong?

Another day in progressive house land. Today songs: Delerium - In this silence and Armin van Buuren - If you should go

I can love

I can fly, but i want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness, but I crave the light that he brings
I can love, but I need his heart
I am strong even on my own, but from him I never want to part

Gabriel - Lamb


I am so happy, so happy with you

Song of the weekend and day: Lamb - Softly

No air

People that inspires you. I think everyone has people that inspires more than other. One person that always has inspired me to positivity, taking care of your body and living life all the way is Marcus Andersson. Since the first time I met him he has been spreading a life joy and determination in me. He is a good friend of mine. A great inspiration.

The person in my life that means the most to me is my grandfather. We have always been tight, very honest, for about five years he gave me a lift to the dressage training on tuesday evenings and on competitions. I don't know. It's a special bond. I think everyone has it to someone. My grandpa' hasn't been doing to well lately and today he got pretty bad. I didnt know how to breath. How would I be able to live without him? How could I be able to breath without air?

Take care of yourself. Take a walk. Find some sport or training that suits you. Dont smoke. You only have one body, you can't buy a new one. Sooner or later it will give up on you. Make a change. For yourself.

Song of the day: Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown - No Air

New haircut

Tonight I finally got my hair fixed. At Kameleonten, by a girl called Caroline. I truely recommend her! I've been really happy about a haircut only two times as I can remember. Today is definitly one of them! Got some colour and a new very nice haircut.

I'm having a cold. The first sickness since I got back from Australia. I'm tired and my noose is like a human tap. Annoying.

On sunday I am going to do some BodyPump at SATS. I hope I'm gonna enjoy it so I can continue losing weight and gaining strength.

Favourite song at the moment is Curly Sue by the Swedish rock band Takida. I started to listen to Takida 6-7 years ago. They were a demo band for years and years! Had gigs all the time and worked so hard. Now, when I'm back in Sweden I realize that they are being played on most of Swedens biggest radio stations. That's awesome! All the luck to you guys!

I wanna be next to you

cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold


Song of the day: Sam Sparro - Black & Gold

Robyn

Swedish artist Robyn is back with the big boys. My new favourite tune (@ work 10 timmes/day) Sexual Eruption - Snoop Dogg ft Robyn





Another really good tune with Robyn, and interesting video is With Every Heartbeat - Kleerup feat Robyn

If a plane would fall from the sky, how big of a hole would it leave in the surface of the earth?

Editors - The racing Rats

If a plane would fall from the sky, how big of a hole would it leave in the surface of the earth?

Editors - The racing Rats

Circle of life

Lately there has been a lot of talking about the film Lion King. J can't stop talking about a Mufasa scene, haha.

And here comes one of the most classic scenes, with the beautiful soundtrack: Circle of life


Song of the day:
Make yourself - Incubus

'If you let them fuck you, there will be no foreplay [...] But if you really want to live, whu not try and make yourself?'

Victim of Stupid people

Yesterday I was out for real for the first time since I got back home to Swe from Australia. We went to a place called Mango, the club called Ace. For about 1,5 yrs ago I hated the place so much that I said that I wouldn't go there again. But yesterday I went to there to catch up with some mates and my new colleague. The place looks much better now, they've changes some stuff. I thought the drink were alright in price, about 1,5 times the price in Australia though. And the music was better than before. Everything was really good until after 1am, when they, as usual, let too many people inside and it all becomes quite caotic. I can't handle too much people at the same time in a small area. It freaks me out. And the type of people going to Mango is not the 'touch-someones-shoulder-and-say-excuse-me-to-pass', no they are 'crash as many peoples bodies as possible and spit and step on their shoes'. I was so furious when I left that I was about to hit someone. Hard. And the worse thing is the stairs and the toiletques. When I finally had the chance to not fall in the stairs and pass the toilettque some idiot had of cours but a door handle straight out (the kind for big doubledoors) so I got that shit in my stumach. It still hurts. A lot. Sorta like my accident at Vibes on the Sunny Coast in Australia


Anyhow. I'll never go to Mango again.

Song of the day:
John Butler Trio (AUS) - Better than

No, you hang up

Today has been a terrible long day. But I am through! Now it's time for some "Let's dance" (same thing as Dancing with the stars in Australia), couple of Havanna Club drinks after this lovely salmon dinner with wonderful white wine:
Weekends wine recommendation:
Petit Chablis Domaine Sainte Claire, France, SEK 99/ AUS$ N/A. pretty easy to drink but with a strong but soft 'aftertaste' - perfect for fish and shellfish.

Now when I got a full time job, I don't feel as strong need to have company all the time. But god damn, it would be nice with some company this weekend...


Todays song II - Shane Ward - No, U hang up

Morning

Song of the day, the best ringtone/alarm signal!

Grinspoon (aus) - Black Tattoo

Cruise?

I just got an offer - going on a cruise this weekend to Estonia for about 500 SEK (~80 AUS$) with some mates from Western Aros. If my boss says yes I will leave on friday for a weekend in Tallinn. I've never been anywhere in balticum before. Or on a cruise. I need to go away for a while. Iäve been thinking about cities in sweden, weekends in Europe or maybe over Easter. But this feels sorta like it's meant to be. I hope so. I hope I'll go.


Song of the day:
Disappointment - Cranberries

Weird connection

Today when I went on one of the buses home from work I got eye contact with a man. You know that kind of eyecontact that gives you a weird feel of connection, that you can't define. You know sometimes when you're sitting on the subway or bus or just standing in a queue and you suddenly notice that you got stuck in someones eyes without any reason. Maybe you're blushing or trying to find any reason to look away - advertising, mobile phone or maybe your iPod. Is it some sort of destiny? Or just like a deja vu sorta thing? Or just nothing at all?

Song of the day - Audioslave - Nothing left to say but Goodbye

Love is Hell

The Valentines Day songs:

Love is hell - Ryan Adams


Come pick me up - Ryan Adams


You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Fuck me up

when anger shows

In that moment you realise
That something you thought would always be there will die
Like everything else

These thoughts I must not think of
Dreams I cant make sense of
I need you to tell me its ok
These thoughts I must not think of
Dreams I cant make sense of
I need you to tell me its ok

You are a sleeping lion in your bed
I will not wake you
You're the moment
Love has passed
We all must learn to hate you
You're a memory from before
Please don't let me forget you
You're the wolves at my door

Song of the day
Editors - When anger shows

Funny clip - Puppy vs Robot


Song of the day
Feeder - Feeling a moment

When things are not going the way they should

Why can't life be predictable for one day? One hour? One minute? My life is never ever standing still. Is that a good or a bad thing? Both I have to say. At the moment everything is pretty stabile and perfect more or less, but I just can't help disturbing it to become something not as good. Or why not be grumpy without knowing why??

Anyhow, Photo of the day:


Song of the day:
Lifehouse - Learn you inside out

Sweet Soul Sister

Song of the weekend:
Sweet Soul Sister - The Cult