Playlist

For a couple of years I have been using Last.fm to register tracks im listening to, find new music and create playlists. Lately I've been using youtube, creating playlists and rocking at work. Last week the art director at work recommended seeqpod for listening to tracks and creating playlists. This my playlist for today:

SeeqPod - Playable Search

Premiere party

Yesterday Stockholm new radio station Radio 107,5 had a premeiere party at Café Opera. It was a mix of Swedish celebs, artists and gorgeous people. It doesn't matter how hot you feel or how good you look, it will always be people looking better and being hotter than you at Café Opera. But that also means that almost everyone there, men or women are hot. Or rich. Haha.

Live performances by Elin Lantho (don't know who she is), Danny and Basic Elements. Peter and Jonas from Basic Elements were wearing clothes from Top Streetwear.





All photos from finest.se

Matching red

Without noticing it I'm now having a new favourite colour? Red. Satin Red. Last week I bought a new phone (it's sooo cool, I'll write more about it tomo) Sony Ericsson Walkman W760 and yesterday a bought a new nailpolish. Mavala Satin. So now I'm walking around with perfect nails matching my new phone. So silly and without noticing until now.

My recomendations for good looking nails:

Buy small containers of nail polish, like Mavala, then the polish wont get to old and you can afford having a lot of different colours.

Always use a multilack in the bottom, let it dry completly.

Two thin layers of the coloures polish.

Finish with the awesome Colorfix with Acryl from Mavala! It will make youre nails perfect and the colour longer lasting.

Spark it by small dots of glitter or gem stones.

Buy wider brush instead of the ones included.

Black jeans, any suggestions?!

Hey! I need YOUR help! I'm looking for a black pair of jeans, really black. Rather skinny but not really skinny in the leg. Any suggestions?!

Smokin' hot

Oh yeah! This week and weekend has certainly been photography. Photography at it's best. Or at my best for a very long time any way. Had my lovely friend Theresa Hol doing makeup on seven models in a small studio in Stockholm. Here is one of my favourite shots:

See more pics at: my Flickr page!

Thank you and goodnight=)

Swedish Idol Auditions

Swedish Idol has been running on tv for a couple of weeks now. I enjoy the auditions more than the programs afterwards, the mix of great singers and people that can't understand that they can't sing.

This year it's a new panel of judges. I love the new judges. They leave people with critism not personal attacks. Andreas Carlsson is my favourite of the judges, really competent and consistent.

Here are a couple of my favourite auditions this year:

Robin Bengtsson - Bring it all home


Kenny Lundström - That's alright with you



My favourite in Australian Idol 2007 was Carl Riseley (listen to those crazy judges with the wonderful accent!)


One of my favourite performances was by Matt Corby though, with a great song by Evermore - It's too late

Inspiration

What got me into photography? That is a rather good question. I think a lot of people is wondering what happened to constructing engineering or sports journalism or the military?

When I was a kid I loved taking photos of everything. When I was about 10 yo my camera broke down at Legoland in Denmark, I was devastated. At the age of 16 I was working at SportCamp and met Erik Linghede, he was just one of all the other leaders, but he bought a SLR and showed me some pics later on, It was so cool! I wanted to do that! At the age of 17-18 I met a guy, Kalle Thyselius, we only met once. But his creativity and feeling for positioning/croping, art and design got me even more interested in photography. Kalle is now working with some of the worlds biggest companies programming websites, designing advertising and more. Have a look - InLoveWith.

Today I brought Erik to the studio and company I work with. He will hopefully work as a photographer a long with me. It's a bit weird, showing my inspiration how to take the pics in the studio. He knows so much more than me. Hopefully this can give him something back=)

And what happened to all of my other job plans? Well. I'm still young. You never know what I'll work with tomo.

Memories turned into reality

Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon

Men. Read this.

Fashion for the fall. Here you have the Humps and the dumps:

HUMPS:

* Buttoned-up cotton shirts, proper tucked in

* Patterned Caps

* Denim-fit Chinos

* Classics like:
- Hat
- Watch (eg Breitling, OMEGA, Bulgari)
- Scarf
- Suit
- Cardigan

* Ed Hardy - Probably the highest ranked brand in the States for rich people and the everyday people that wants something limited. If you like the style - enjoy it now, it's at it's top. Soon I belive it will fall just like Von Dutch did.

Brands to have a look at: Filippa K, Acne, Ed Hardy (if you wanna spice the classic outfit), Dockers, Dickies, Boss, Sand, Dior, Paul & Friends


DUMPS:

* Low V-neck

* Giant logos on your clothes

* Linen Pants

* Tight Laces

* Bandana on your head

* Big colourful accessories


Sources: Complex by Marc Ecko Enterprices (USA), Stil by Nordiska Kompaniet (SWE), KING Magazine (SWE), BON and my own perspective and thoughts.

Eric Prydz/Pryda

House music at it's best. Swedish house music. I've said it before. But hey, this is freaking quality! Eric Prydz is creating new music constantly. When you think you know about his music there is new tracks over and over again. I love. You'll never get bored.

Shadows by Pryda:


A different version of my favourite Pjanoo - Fusion Pjanoo

Smell like a man!

When you're walking on the street passing this gorgeous man what makes the experience even stronger? A) The manfully smell of sweat B) A perfect touch of perfume C) No smell

I prefer B. A nice perfume can make the ordinary man to the hot man.

If you wanna get me intersted, today I'm recomending:

Dior Homme Sport (Eau de Toilette)

There is beatbox and there is beatbox. Impressive.

Bad idea Record Labels/Youtube.com

It's getting harder and harder to find a video to embed on the blog. The reason? The record labels can now go in and decide which videos are staying on youtube.com, they keep the best ones, put their label on the video and disable the embeding. Fucking enoying. Why? Now I can't show you wonderful artists like Neverstore, Lazee and Backyard Babies. I just can't see any reason to do this.

The Unforgiven III

All Metallica fans would think of one thing hearing the word 'unforgiven'. At least if you don't have english as your main language, haha. Anyway, they have previously released The Unforgiven and the Unforgiven II. On the latest album, Death Magnetic, that will the realeased on September 12th, they have The Unforgiven III.

Listen:

Sash!

Let's daaaaaaance!!! The weeekend is here!


Stay


Encore une fois

Going wrong

Armin van Buuren - Going Wrong

Never turn your back on him

Matthew Good - Weapon

Jealousy

How come you are the only one making me jealous? Until I met you I never understod how people could feel so much jealousy. Now I understand. Let go of me. I hate jealousy. It doesn't make me to a very nice person. Or especially happy. It was a really good day. It's gonna be a really good week. Nothing should stop me anymore. It's time for some highway life.

Fireside

My computer is not working correctly since a couple of months back. I always have to listen to music. So for a month I've only been listening to music through youtube. Yesterday I rediscovered my cd-collection! A pretty awesome one, filled with rock, hard rock, singer/songwriter and some other stuff.

One of Swedens best musicians (according to me) is Kristofer Åström. He is from northern part of Sweden called Luleå. I have every single solo album from him until a couple of years back. He was also playing in a rock/punk band in Luleå called Fireside. Today I listened to the album Get Shot. Here are my favourites from that album:


Follow Follow


All you had

You don't need to bother

Stone Sour - Bother

Stop running

Everyone says you’re amazing

Say you don’t know how to do it now
So you run
It’s not that you’re bleeding, but you’re through with it now
So you run, so you run

I know that you need it, you can’t live alone
So you run, so you run

Only you know the real ones are cause you’ve seen
There’s only one question I want to ask is it healing
When you hear everyone say you’re amazing
Does anybody ask you?

Do you cry in your sleep and do you feel ok?
When you run

Cause I know that you’re real, amazing, amazing, amazing

Photo of the day

Texas - by Tollebrant

Seal

As a kid I fell in love with the song Kiss from a rose by Seal. Through the years when he has come back I keep on falling in love with his songs, like Love's divine.

In november/december I was watching Victoria Secrets Christmas Fashion Show in Australia (I still lived there). Thought it was interesting from a photography perspective. I was really impressed, it's truely beautiful girls walking that catwalk! And those heals! Oh my, try to walk in those. Anyhow, I probably was quite emotional at that time but when Seal was performing it was just awesome, and the duet with his wife, the unbelivable Heidi Klum...

The Duet:



The finish, Seal - Amazing



New Single - The right life

Not over

More house covers! Original:

Grace - Not over yet



Cover/remix:

Planet Perfecto feat Grace - Not over yet

Texas

Yesterday I fell in love. With Texas. An eight week old Irish Soft Coated Wheatern Terrier. Ludde, that I have been writing about was a American soft coated wheatern terrier. I just wanna play with him, and feel him fall asleep in my lap.

Weak

The Script - Together we cry

Release me from you

Though i stand tall, you're breaking me down

Release me from my memories, release me from your chains, release me from your beautiness

I can get what i want, I'm getting along but still I got nothing

time cannot erase

I'm so tired of being here
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
But you still have
All of me

Real slow

I wanna see you, dance with me, take me out. Real slow, let's make it last. Take it real slow. Hold me real tight, let's stay up all night.

Come on, I want you to come pick me up, take me out, fuck me up. You know you could. I wish you would.



Melo - Real slow

Truely amazing video

Amazing video and a good song: Unkle - Reign

Swedish house music at it's best

Eric Prydz/Pryda - Pjanoo

Go08

Stureplan became a dancefloor with some of the worlds best dj's, two of them from Swedish House Mafia - Sebastian Ingrosso and Steve Angelo. My friends and I weren't the only ones there. Aprox 45 000 people were dancing on the streets that night. It was freaking crowded.

Why?

Why can't I just leave it. Leave it the way I should have left it the first time. Why did it all start allover again? I was weak. I was stupid. I wanna fall back. Will anyone catch me?

Old favourite @ the dancefloor

Stardust - The music sounds better with you

Once I was like you

Firefox AK feat. LAID - Once I was like you

I've lost all of them.

I have now lost all of the male souls meaning the world to me (except my father). I lost Freddy 8th of December 2004. Grandpa 17th of May 2008 and now Ludde 30th of July 2008.

I've also lost (not physically) two men in my life that meant so much to me the last couple of weeks. I'm sorry but I can't continue. And I'm sorry that I don't feel the same as two years ago.

Been out dancing tonight at Cafe Opera in Stockholm with a girlfriend of mine. I didn't feel like dancing with any men, I just don't wanna get 'addicted' to another one breaking my heart by leaving in any sense.

I'm sad but there is no tears left to cry.


Rest in Peace Ludde, 5th of April 1996 - 30th of July 2008.

Tomo!

Tomorrow me and granma are going away for one week of sun, swimming, canoeing, fishing and just doing absolutely nothing! See you guys in a week! Take care<3

Heart

My heart has been damaged. My heart has been fixed. My heart has been taken care of. My heart has been stolen.

A big piece of my heart will never be the same since I lost my best friend. But I'm starting to realize that someone has finally taken a tiny piece of my heart. I think the piece is growing as well. And he has certainly helped me to heal the pain of my damaged heart.

I'm gonna miss you. A lot.

Copycat

Time for me to be a copycat. Read a blog the other day and the blogger wrote things that people may not know about him. I thought I could be a copycat and do my own little list of things YOU may not know about me.


When I started walking I had to constantly wear a helmet cause I kept on getting brain concussion by falling over, running into the table or sitting on the vaccum cleaner when mum draged it away without noticing me on it.

"My" first horse was a black Shetland Pony named Pretty Ghost that I was driving around and tought my little brother to ride on.

I started swimming when I was 5 yo and was in a elite group when I was 8 yo and had to quit cause I hated to compete and was afraid of deep water - so I could only train in shallow pools.

I loved Spice Girls and knew every single dance to the first two albums, so when we moved and I changed school I could no longer be Mel B cause they already had some Spice Girls at that school, so I became their dance teacher instead.

I don't eat soup.

I have jumped out of a plane.

Once I climbed up to the five meter springboard. An adult had to carry me down cause I was shaking too much to get myself down.

I lived in Australia for more than 10 months and never tried surfing or went to Sydney Opera house.

I have been working with the royalties horses and driving four of them at the same time on Djurgården in Stockholm.

Some of my dream jobs throughout the years: command/officer, sports journalist, cabinet/pattern-maker/carpenter, fire fighter, life guard, riding police officer, champagne expert.

I have been writing lyrics in english since I was 12-13 yo.

The first time I crushed my front teeth I was swimming into the bottom of a pool. Second time by biting some sort of toy while chasing my brother at our grandparents house. Third time on a bike, into the ground - pretty badly wounded noose, lips and chin. I remember they talking about that some sort of plastic surgery might be needed.

I love 80's music like Earth wind and fire, Village People, Madonna, Cyndi Lauper, Whitney Houston, Simply Red, Temptations, David Bowie, Boney M, Michael Jackson and of course: Alphaville

Phase 4: Tickets

All the tickets are payed! The final travel will be like this:

22/7 Leaving Stockholm and arriving to Linköping at 11.58 am.

24/7 Departing Linköping and going to Göteborg, passing Katrineholm, arriving at 17.17pm.

28/7 Departing Gothenburg, arriving to Helsingborg at 12.04 pm

31/7 Departing Helsingborg, to Malmö/Sturup Airport arriving in London at 8.15 pm

3/8 Departing London, arriving in Nyköping at 11.40 am.

Dance cover

Quite interesting with covers. Before I got frustrated and thought new versions destroyed old ones. But hey, covers put old song back into light! One house song that I really like and have been writing about is Supermode with Tell me why. The AD at work showed me the original this week. Here the two versions are:

Original: Bronski Beat - Smalltown Boy


"New" cover: Supermode - Tell me why

JUST DANCE!

Everything will be okey, just dance!

Shake some booty gorgeous - just dance!


Lady Gaga - Just Dance

Enervated.

I am completely exhausted, enervated. Can't barely get out of bed in the morning no matter for how long I have been sleeping. Days at work are hard, very hard, I don't have the streangth. At the moment it is a bus strike as well in entire Stockholm. Which means that I'm walking or taking the bike to work. I don't have any streangth to do anything after that walk/ride. It's nothing - 30 min walk/15 min ride. What's wrong?

Breakky recommendation

* Banana
* Pear or peach
* 100grams raspberry
* 1 dl light yoghurt
* 2 tablespoons linseed
* some milk and/or ice

Pour it all in a mixer, mix it and drink!

Phase 3: Doubts

Should I really travel so much within in Sweden? For how long should I stay in London? Should I just go to Italy and hang around and learn some italian until I run out of money? Should I stay at home and try to get everything sorted? Should I just take a couple of weekends?

Anyhow, I'm having contact with the people I'm gonna see and during the weekend I'm gonna decide where to go, when and buy tickets.

Come closer

Music of the week: Neyo - Closer

Girls big night out

Yesterday my girls and I had a big night out, dinner, desert, nice wines and out shaking our booty's. Finally we went to Solidaritet! They play pure house music one stair up outside, with only the sky as a roof and more mixed dance music downstairs. Interesting mix of people.

At every place we went to yesterday I met some of my models/models to be. Actually the three most good looking human beings I've ever met. It's gonna be me and Bingo Rimér. Hahaha... Him and his women and me and my men.

Phase 2: Dates

Hmm, I'm really in for this trip now! Soooo, week 29- busy! After that, laundry and re-pack. Imagine I'll leave mid week 30, to Linköping a couple of days. Gothenburg for the weekend. Helsingborg week 31. Wednesday 23 of July I'm flying from Malmö to London. Gonna stay in England for approx 1-2 weeks.

Anyone wanna catch up along the way?

I am soooo looking forward to this!

Phase 1: Travel Map

(Click on image to enlarge)

Alrighty. First part of travel planning is getting started: places I'm gonna visit:

Start: Stockholm
* Linköping (Simon & Titti, Ramona, Jocke)
* Göteborg (Ida, Peter, Carolina)
* Helsingborg (Carro, relatives: Eva, Janne, Brutus, Ulrika, Hasse etc)
* Paderbom, Tyskland (André)
* London (Paul, Charlie, Gustav)
* Eastbourne (family Powell)
* Brighton (my favourite city!)

London

Week 29 me and grandma is going on a wonderful vacation to Villinge. Villinge is an island in Stockholms archipelago. An island where we've spent sooo many years, it's just ridiculous. I hope we'll have some great weather so we can spend the entire week sunbathing and fishing and swimming!

After week 29 has ended only the Gods knows what I'll do or where. I'm thinking about doing a traintrip in Europe. Or just move to some friends in London, work and have fun til the money is gone. Or why not go to Italy or Greece? Maybe work as a travel guide/instructor? Or try to get an assistant job in London. Or just work at Starbucks. Or stay in Sweden? Stockholm? Do what? Live where? With whome?

I know. Im escaping the reality again. But what else can you do when you don't like it the way it is? I'm not gonna stay put and get bitter. I'm gonna find myself a reality that is good, fun, enjoyable. Just like aussies. Why just take things for what they are if you don't enjoy it?

I want to be your princess

Show me love, show me life. Baby show me what it's all about.



Midsummer celebrations are over. It has been really good. Calm, nice, sun, rain, white clothes, family, snaps, beer, strawberries, fish, potatoes. Just my best friend missing. First year without him. It felt quit empty. But still a good midsummer. It will never be the same again.


Best song in a loooong time! Kaskade - I remember

A Beautiful Friend

If YOU are in Stockholm tomorrow night, don't miss out on A Beautiful Friend (Pelle Ekerstam) in Kungsträdgården at 8.00pm. It's for free. Drop by and check him out!

Turn back time

I wish I could turn back time. Five weeks back. When life was alright. Pretty good. Nothing really to complain about. I could eat and sleep. I was comfortable and pretty nice. I haven't been sleeping or eating well for a bit more than two weeks. Yesterday and today I haven't been eating almost anything, I just can't force myself. Haven't been sleeping either. Or being able to do anything. for 14 hours I haven't done anything more than a morning smoothie all day. Now it's time for bed. I hope I won't have to spend the night at the toilet. I hope I can sleep. Otherwise I don't know if I'll be able to stand up at work tomo. Just let me disappear for a while. I don't wanna go away alone. But the only one I want to leave with can't. Or don't want to. I don't know.

Det är tanken som räknas.

Bullshit. Det är det du gör som räknas. Det du faktiskt säger, det som faktiskt blir av. Nothing else matters.

If I had another change

If I had another chance I wouldn't have turned my mobile off.

Eskimo Joe to Europe!!!

Aussie rock band Eskimo Joe is coming to the UK in December! I just have to buy tickets to the London gig, 4th of December. Buy tickets at seetickets.com from 20th of June.

Some great song and videos:

Black fingernails, red wine:


New York:


Sarah:

Great video

One of my absolute favourite songs and video from last year is Yves Larock with Rise up. It just makes me so happy. I miss running at the sunrise, along the morning surf at Alex Headlands Beach to the rivermouth at Maroochydore.


Enjoy!

A piece of my heart is forever gone

Latley haven't been writing so much, sorry about that. And sorry that I sound like a really sad person. I am happy as well but the last three-four weeks hasn't been easy in any way. I'm not happier right now. Tomorrow is the funeral. Sorta don't look forward to it at all. I just can't make myself do anything or prepare anything. I just wanna feel some comfort in the warm arms that makes me calm.

What would we do without this wonderful family? What would we do without eachother? We will go through this. We will make it together. Our love to grandpa, dad, husband, father-in-law Blixten ("the lightning/flash") will keep our connection together even stronger. Forever.

I'm not leaving now

Tell me why?

Tell me why? Please tell me why? Do you know why?

2yrs.

Two years ago.

It's not over, not over, not over yet

The last weeks I haven't been the most stable person to hang around. And lately I've been feeling how I'm about to loose more of the ones that means the most. I hope I won't. Not yet anyway.

The funeral is comin soon. I wanna have speech to grandpa. Dunno know if ill be able to. It still hurts as much today, exactly two weeks later as those days. Time will never heal this wound.


It's been a good day. Been watching and photographing the Stockholm Marathon with my pears. Got some nice pics. We had dinner on the way home at an Italian Restaurant at Birger Jarlsgatan. Very nice!

Tomo it's time for some training with my personal trainer. Haven't been training for a bit more than two weeks. So it will be hard, but good. Looking forward to it. Wish I would have been able to go to granma tomo as well, but sometimes things just won't match/work.

Tonight the Aussie people are having a reunion in Helsingborg. I wish I would have been there together with J. Was dreaming about going there since I got the invitation months and months ago.

I wanna go away for a while. Travel. Inside sweden or Europe or anywhere in the world, big or small, alone or together with someone. Time to leave for a while?

it hurts

its just so hard. youre trying to be strong and supportive. every night youre wondering when the tears are going to end. how many are they? i just wanna disappear for a while. i feel so alone. im not alone. not at all. not in any way. but i lost my best friend. i lost my soul mate. i lost my grandpa. not just any grandpa. the best one ever. of course theres emptiness. and will always be. no-one can fill that big part of my heart and soul. no one.

alcohol

hasn't been drinking for a while. at all. and i won't.

Crazy hairstyles

Another swedish musician that I love is Eric Gadd. I love old and new stuff just as much. I started thinking about him when I watched the videos with A Beautiful Friend - they have to go to the same hair stylist at the moment=)

Latest single and great video with Eric Gadd (for the first time for a long time he's making music in swedish again) - Tvåhundratusen


C'mon let's love

I'd like to recommend

I'd like to recommend "A Beautiful Friend" (Pelle Ekerstam). On thursday J and I went to Södra Bar in Stockholm to watch his live perfermance. Very good and personal concert! If that wasn't enough he is very nice in person as well.

I would like to describe the music as melodic, pretty calm, soft - just the perfect music on a sunday.

Emotions on a leash


Ageing

i'll miss you forever

Rest in peace Moffar Bengt 'Blixten' Andersson
11th of January 1937 - 17th of May 2008

You're the inspiration

Keep on fighting my inspiration

The Sound Factory

Today I was shooting some pics at The Sound Factory for their new website. I'll let you know when it's up and running!







All photos Copyright Sophia Tollebrant

Live music in Stockholm, thursday!

On thursday you can see Jason Mraz, Kate Ryan, E.M.D, Linda Bengtzing, Patrik Isaksson and so on in Kungsträdgården, Central Stockholm, the concert is for free!

Some favourite tunes:

Jason Mraz
Sleeping all day... sleeping all day to dream about you


1000 things

Kate Ryan


Awesome training tune! Libertine:

I want you

I feel, alive, now I can breathe again
I feel you, I want you
I know your touch is all I need
I'm waiting, you're shining

I can love

I can fly, but i want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness, but I crave the light that he brings
I can love, but I need his heart
I am strong even on my own, but from him I never want to part

Gabriel - Lamb


I am so happy, so happy with you

Song of the weekend and day: Lamb - Softly

Totally life on a stick

In Sweden we have an expression that with an exact translation is "Life on a stick" which means that life is pretty good more or less. This weekend has been as much life on a stick as possible. It's been the best weekend for months and months and months! Just great weather, being outside, having picnic, watching the students Quarneval, having dinner out, meeting friends, fresh strawberries, j, smoothies, frappe, watching the boats and canoes go by in the sun on a bridge, getting sun burnt, playing fotball and volleyboll with my cousins - just life at it's best.

thanks, enjoy the weather, stay outside!

Forever in my heart

8th of May 1976 - 8th of December 2004

night notes

Security

Finally. The safe arms and presence that I've been missing. Thank you.

kom hem

No air

People that inspires you. I think everyone has people that inspires more than other. One person that always has inspired me to positivity, taking care of your body and living life all the way is Marcus Andersson. Since the first time I met him he has been spreading a life joy and determination in me. He is a good friend of mine. A great inspiration.

The person in my life that means the most to me is my grandfather. We have always been tight, very honest, for about five years he gave me a lift to the dressage training on tuesday evenings and on competitions. I don't know. It's a special bond. I think everyone has it to someone. My grandpa' hasn't been doing to well lately and today he got pretty bad. I didnt know how to breath. How would I be able to live without him? How could I be able to breath without air?

Take care of yourself. Take a walk. Find some sport or training that suits you. Dont smoke. You only have one body, you can't buy a new one. Sooner or later it will give up on you. Make a change. For yourself.

Song of the day: Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown - No Air

calm

Finally I got some quality time doing absolutely nothing! Today, the 1st of May we are having a 'red' day in Sweden - public holiday. So I have been sleeping, taking a loooong bath, sitting on the balcony in the sun, painted my fingernails, chatting, working with some photos, watching tv. Just relaxing. Calmness.

Tomorrow I'm going to work as usual. Plus I'm going to a music studio for a small freelance job. It's gonna be cool I think.

On saturday and sunday Im gonna finnish off a lot of half done photoprojects that I have laying around. No work stuff but still a bit unfinished. Not good.


I just can't believe how much you can miss someone. Someone that you barely haven't seen for weeks and then a couple of days in a row, and just cause you know that the person will be away for awhile you get paralized on the thought of being without the person. Crazy. But hey what can you do about? Im gonna look forward to see him again. Yeah you.

I miss Australia

Some days I just can't find a way to not think about or miss Australia. The country that I lived in for almost one year. The year of 2007. A weird year. A good year. A bad year. A very different year. A hot year. A wonderful year. A crazy year. But the only thing that I want to go back for would be to see my friends and 'family' - Lizzie, Erika, Viv, Shaun and his family, the girls at TAFE - Claire, Renee, T... you know who you are, the ones that really matters. I would like to live in that climate again, but not necesserily in australia. Will I ever go back? Go back to Sunny Coast.

One tv-series that I followed as a maniac was the amercan serie "Life" it has finally arrived in Sweden as well! I just loved it! And the commercial before the program started they used Delta Goodrems song 'In this life'. This youtube clip with the song that I found is from the Mourning Show on Channel 7 that I watched every morning. Listen to the wonderful accent! Im afraid that Im about to lose my aussie accent - I hope not!

Sorry

Sorry that I haven't been writing so much lately! It's just too much happening at the moment. Both good and bad stuff. You know, sometimes you just wish that everything would be a bit less complicated, that the answers just could be so clear that you'd never hesitate. Not always. But sometimes. Just to make life a bit smother and not so harsh.

The weather have been great this week! I've been wearing skirts, dresses and shorts! Sunnies have been a must have! Every single lunch I've been laying in the grass at Gärdet. I've been shooting a lot. Both at work and personally. Been shooting advertising with Dogge, Ken Ring, Sam-E (from Medina) and Kaliffa this week. They are all swedish hiphop artists. So keep your eyes open for the magazines: Rocky and Kingsize in entire Scandinavia.

Personally I've been shooting one of my colleague jumping around in the grass, my gorgeoues friend around Långholmen and just some portraits of friends at after work.

This weekend I'm gonna give my website a face-lift. Well it's my goal anyway. I'll let you know if I'll make or not=).

I've started training! At SATS. I'm gonna become a training freak again! Wooohoooo!

Speak soon,

Peace xo

Take it all or leave me alone

Since thursday evening I have been listening to one album. One album only. Rockferry. Rockferry by Duffy. The 23yo woman from Wales is creating amazing music! I have never been listening to a female artist that caught me right away and so harsh. I do believe that it has a bit to it that some of the lyrics is sorta like my life at the moment. I can feel the pain or the joy in the different songs. The determination. I love this album. Buy it. Listen to it at youtube. Buy tickets to her live performances. This woman is amazing. Don't miss out on her!

If you're in sweden you have probably not missed out on the single "Mercy"

New haircut

Tonight I finally got my hair fixed. At Kameleonten, by a girl called Caroline. I truely recommend her! I've been really happy about a haircut only two times as I can remember. Today is definitly one of them! Got some colour and a new very nice haircut.

I'm having a cold. The first sickness since I got back from Australia. I'm tired and my noose is like a human tap. Annoying.

On sunday I am going to do some BodyPump at SATS. I hope I'm gonna enjoy it so I can continue losing weight and gaining strength.

Favourite song at the moment is Curly Sue by the Swedish rock band Takida. I started to listen to Takida 6-7 years ago. They were a demo band for years and years! Had gigs all the time and worked so hard. Now, when I'm back in Sweden I realize that they are being played on most of Swedens biggest radio stations. That's awesome! All the luck to you guys!

Best night out this far 2008

Last friday I left work straight to the Central Station. I was on my way to Västerås (one of swedens biggest cities, also called Western Aros in my earlier posts) where some friends were getting ready for some party. Because of an excident I got stuck on the train and got to Västerås about 9 pm. I was starving! After some food my mood were much better. We became seven people on a 'before-party' and then we walked just a couple of hundred meters to the best and 'coolest' place - Blue Moon Bar. SInce it was friday and the third weekend after salary it wasnt as full as the last time I was there but still people dancing on all three (!) dancefloors. I had such a great time! We went to the bar, then dancing on all the dancefloors, the bar, dancing, the bar and then dancing til they closed the doors. It was great music, great friends, good vibe on the place (much more relaxed than overfull saturdays) - just awesome. Afterwards we continued at a friends place and crashed in the living room.

The day after we had brunch at Kalle på Spången and then we had some ten pin bowling happening at Strike. Went pretty well for me until the last round. Then I was too tired to get it going the way I wanted. I am having such a pain in my right arm and left bum, down the thigh... Start training more than just walking to work!

Thanks for a great weekend, everyone involved!

Good surprices

There are good suprices and less good ones. At the moment I am trying to sort some big gifts out. To people that just got their first kid and two 30 year old to be. Trying to find something inbetween too crazy and boring.

A good and cool surprice to do at a wedding:

Language problem

When you singalong to a song, how often do you really know the exact lyric? No matter what language, do you only sing if you know the lyrics?

I love Moi Lolita by Julian Dore, it's in french. I don't know so much french. I'm trying not to sing a long, cause I don't know the words or what it means. But a couple of weeks ago in the studio I sang a long. With an african model that knows french better than any other language. That was emberassing. But now I know what he sings=)

Here comes a pretty good example on when you should NOT sing a song if you're not sure about the lyrics:

733 shots i less than 4 hours

This morning I was shooting 733 fashion photos on a model that constantly were changing clothes in 4 hours. That's a little bit more than 3 photos per minute. I'm flash damaged.

Waterpolo

Awesome sport - waterpolo. One of the toughest, hardest sports. And coolest. If you ask me. Would you be able to get this high up from the water surface just by using your legs?





Photos by Tollebrant

cmyk

I finally got my jacket! The white sweatjacket 'CMYK' from Supremebeing!

Easter holidays

Yep, it's already the LAST day of the easter holidays. Feels terrible. What happened to all of those days? What happened to everything I was suppose to do? Rebuild my website, go to at least two photographic exhibitions, swimming, 'do the city', hang out with my cousins and so on. Today is the last day and I've everything left to do. I'm going to my cousins in a couple of hours and then we're going to celibrate my fathers birthday. And then this day is gone with the wind again. The day before yesterday I started to scratch myself, which I do when I'm stressed, I didnt feel especially stressed. Yesterday at the cinema we had to leave in the middle of the film cause my stress stomach started to destroy it all=/. Now I'm alright. But I have an urge to do everything that I havent done today.

3 months

Three months, 10 hours and about 15 min ago I landed outside Arlanda Airport, Stockholm, with flames out of the plane motors. I have been back in Sweden for three months. It feels a bit unreal. The year in Australia almost feels like a black hole somewhere years back in my life. I was so filled with anger, sadness and disappointment when I decided to leave forever four days before the Christmas break flight to Sweden. I am still filled with a lot anger, sadness and disappointment when I look back. What was my plan when I moved to the other side of the world and what happened?

The good side of the year: I met wonderful people that I'll always remember and love and hopefully keep contact with - Lizzy and Erika is the two diamonds. The two rocks that kept me hanging on in tough times, even though might had a hard time themselves. And I got so much life experiences - manage to live on my own and meet people, all alone, with no help (at the beginning) or contacts on the other side of the world - the first time moving from home.

Today I am alone for the first time in my familys flat. And I am happy. It feels so good to have some time alone. Even though I right away thought about having a friend over. But Im looking forward to quality time this weekend with people that means the most to me now. Back home.

You know. You loose contact with a lot people when you are away for a year. Its not hard nowadays to get the contact going again, but what keeps me away? What am I afraid of?


Sam Sparro - Black and Gold is still the favourite tune. It has been going for more than 24 hours on repeat, with a tiny break up with Mustasch songs tonight.

Over and out, sleep tight.

The love of my life

The love of my life is WATER. All sorts of water. The water you drink (at least Swedish wonderfull water), taking a bath, going for a swim in the lake or the ocean? Why not in the pool? I believe water is 'my' element. Most definitly. I just love it so much. There is nothing better. I wanna get an apartment with a big tub. That would be sooo great.

Water is the perfect playground as well!

Photo: Sophia Tollebrant

I wanna be next to you

cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold


Song of the day: Sam Sparro - Black & Gold

What would hospitals be without nurses?

Nurses are in general the most wonderful people in the world, the ones that took care of me in örebro, a couple of years ago, Lizzy in Australia and the wonderfull ones taking care of me this friday. Anyhow. They certainly not get the right appreciation. Not here in Sweden or in Australia.

And what would pain be without morphine? My favourite friend against the evil pain spririts this friday!

Baby. Kids. You know, that package.

When people are starting to get babies around you - you wake up - and with what reaction? I freak out. Panic. Wants to crawl underground or why not go out partying like an 18 yo?

In Australia I was on my first baby shower. Felt like just a couple of weeks after we got to know that she was pregnant, but she had Ellie just two weeks later!

This time it's someone of opposite gender. Someone that I dreamt about having a family life together with. That was six years ago and I was only a kid. Now Im the same age as he was then. And he is having a family, house, giant car - you know the whole package. What happen? What happened to these last six years? Heck a lot, but still, it doesnt feel so far away.

Second age freak out in six months. How can you slow time down?

Robyn

Swedish artist Robyn is back with the big boys. My new favourite tune (@ work 10 timmes/day) Sexual Eruption - Snoop Dogg ft Robyn





Another really good tune with Robyn, and interesting video is With Every Heartbeat - Kleerup feat Robyn

Sweat jacket

I have finally found myself a sweatjacket that I really like! It's a mens sweatjacket, but that's the only way for me to get the right armlength. And it's beautiful! From the brand SupremeBeing - love the brand. Want to buy entire collections!

Here's the sweatjacket that im going to buy (it's reversible as well! I think im gonna buy the white one...):




In sweden you can buy it online from Streetwear
Elsewhere at SupremeBeing's webshop!

Bad choise SVT

Swedish Television Channel that sends the swedish competitions for Eurovision song contest has made a really bad choice. For once people are watching the competetions. Because the music? No. Because of the Tv-host? No. Because this years comedian? Yes. Young comedian Björn Gustafsson is making a quick success by his presence. SVT has now choosen to not have him in this weekends episod (second chance). Which has made the audience to react. Let's say like this - It would probably half the amount of people watching on saturday compared to last week. I won't be watching anyway. Just because Björn Gustafsson isn't present.

Watch this clip even though you're not understanding Swedish! Björn is suppose to read a poem about love, but is doing something else...

Apple Bottom Jeans

At work, they are all going on about that I have to learn more about hiphop. - The music, style, how to move and so on. This is a song that plays a lot at work:

Apple Bottom Jeans:


We are actually selling clothes from the brand Apple Bottoms. Check these clothes out:



I truely want this beautiful fluffy thingy!

Brittish music

I love music from Great Britain (and Australia of course), It is something special with music from the island with the different mini-countries. An old favourite that I started to listen to the other day is Lamb. I got the single Gabriel sent to me from Isak years ago, before he made my homepage. I loved it straight away and that song got me into the Café del Mar cds (lounge music). I still lover Gabriel. Another favourite is Gorecki. Here is Gabriel...:



... and Gorecki:



Drink recommendation of the weekend:
* Drink glas
* crushed ice
* Havanna Club Blanco (DO NOT use Bacardi Rum)
* mint
* lime
* raw sugar
* lemonade
* a sour fruit/berries; raspberry, blueberries...

Pour 4 cl Havanna club, some crushed ice and a table spoon raw sugar in each glas. Crush lime (½-1 lime/glas) and mint (three-five leaves/glas) until it all is a nice soucy thing, pour raspberries in and crush them as well but not as much. Pour into to the glas along with some crushed ice. You should have a couple of centimeters to the top of the glas, fill it up with lemonade. Take a spoon and make sure to lift all the bottom jummie up to the top so it's all nicely mixed.

You've got yourself (and friends) a classic Raspberry Mojito.