Come closer

Music of the week: Neyo - Closer

Girls big night out

Yesterday my girls and I had a big night out, dinner, desert, nice wines and out shaking our booty's. Finally we went to Solidaritet! They play pure house music one stair up outside, with only the sky as a roof and more mixed dance music downstairs. Interesting mix of people.

At every place we went to yesterday I met some of my models/models to be. Actually the three most good looking human beings I've ever met. It's gonna be me and Bingo Rimér. Hahaha... Him and his women and me and my men.

Phase 2: Dates

Hmm, I'm really in for this trip now! Soooo, week 29- busy! After that, laundry and re-pack. Imagine I'll leave mid week 30, to Linköping a couple of days. Gothenburg for the weekend. Helsingborg week 31. Wednesday 23 of July I'm flying from Malmö to London. Gonna stay in England for approx 1-2 weeks.

Anyone wanna catch up along the way?

I am soooo looking forward to this!

Phase 1: Travel Map

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Alrighty. First part of travel planning is getting started: places I'm gonna visit:

Start: Stockholm
* Linköping (Simon & Titti, Ramona, Jocke)
* Göteborg (Ida, Peter, Carolina)
* Helsingborg (Carro, relatives: Eva, Janne, Brutus, Ulrika, Hasse etc)
* Paderbom, Tyskland (André)
* London (Paul, Charlie, Gustav)
* Eastbourne (family Powell)
* Brighton (my favourite city!)

London

Week 29 me and grandma is going on a wonderful vacation to Villinge. Villinge is an island in Stockholms archipelago. An island where we've spent sooo many years, it's just ridiculous. I hope we'll have some great weather so we can spend the entire week sunbathing and fishing and swimming!

After week 29 has ended only the Gods knows what I'll do or where. I'm thinking about doing a traintrip in Europe. Or just move to some friends in London, work and have fun til the money is gone. Or why not go to Italy or Greece? Maybe work as a travel guide/instructor? Or try to get an assistant job in London. Or just work at Starbucks. Or stay in Sweden? Stockholm? Do what? Live where? With whome?

I know. Im escaping the reality again. But what else can you do when you don't like it the way it is? I'm not gonna stay put and get bitter. I'm gonna find myself a reality that is good, fun, enjoyable. Just like aussies. Why just take things for what they are if you don't enjoy it?

I want to be your princess

Show me love, show me life. Baby show me what it's all about.



Midsummer celebrations are over. It has been really good. Calm, nice, sun, rain, white clothes, family, snaps, beer, strawberries, fish, potatoes. Just my best friend missing. First year without him. It felt quit empty. But still a good midsummer. It will never be the same again.


Best song in a loooong time! Kaskade - I remember

A Beautiful Friend

If YOU are in Stockholm tomorrow night, don't miss out on A Beautiful Friend (Pelle Ekerstam) in Kungsträdgården at 8.00pm. It's for free. Drop by and check him out!

Turn back time

I wish I could turn back time. Five weeks back. When life was alright. Pretty good. Nothing really to complain about. I could eat and sleep. I was comfortable and pretty nice. I haven't been sleeping or eating well for a bit more than two weeks. Yesterday and today I haven't been eating almost anything, I just can't force myself. Haven't been sleeping either. Or being able to do anything. for 14 hours I haven't done anything more than a morning smoothie all day. Now it's time for bed. I hope I won't have to spend the night at the toilet. I hope I can sleep. Otherwise I don't know if I'll be able to stand up at work tomo. Just let me disappear for a while. I don't wanna go away alone. But the only one I want to leave with can't. Or don't want to. I don't know.

Det är tanken som räknas.

Bullshit. Det är det du gör som räknas. Det du faktiskt säger, det som faktiskt blir av. Nothing else matters.

If I had another change

If I had another chance I wouldn't have turned my mobile off.

Eskimo Joe to Europe!!!

Aussie rock band Eskimo Joe is coming to the UK in December! I just have to buy tickets to the London gig, 4th of December. Buy tickets at seetickets.com from 20th of June.

Some great song and videos:

Black fingernails, red wine:


New York:


Sarah:

Great video

One of my absolute favourite songs and video from last year is Yves Larock with Rise up. It just makes me so happy. I miss running at the sunrise, along the morning surf at Alex Headlands Beach to the rivermouth at Maroochydore.


Enjoy!

A piece of my heart is forever gone

Latley haven't been writing so much, sorry about that. And sorry that I sound like a really sad person. I am happy as well but the last three-four weeks hasn't been easy in any way. I'm not happier right now. Tomorrow is the funeral. Sorta don't look forward to it at all. I just can't make myself do anything or prepare anything. I just wanna feel some comfort in the warm arms that makes me calm.

What would we do without this wonderful family? What would we do without eachother? We will go through this. We will make it together. Our love to grandpa, dad, husband, father-in-law Blixten ("the lightning/flash") will keep our connection together even stronger. Forever.

I'm not leaving now

Tell me why?

Tell me why? Please tell me why? Do you know why?

2yrs.

Two years ago.