Waterpolo

Awesome sport - waterpolo. One of the toughest, hardest sports. And coolest. If you ask me. Would you be able to get this high up from the water surface just by using your legs?





Photos by Tollebrant

cmyk

I finally got my jacket! The white sweatjacket 'CMYK' from Supremebeing!

Easter holidays

Yep, it's already the LAST day of the easter holidays. Feels terrible. What happened to all of those days? What happened to everything I was suppose to do? Rebuild my website, go to at least two photographic exhibitions, swimming, 'do the city', hang out with my cousins and so on. Today is the last day and I've everything left to do. I'm going to my cousins in a couple of hours and then we're going to celibrate my fathers birthday. And then this day is gone with the wind again. The day before yesterday I started to scratch myself, which I do when I'm stressed, I didnt feel especially stressed. Yesterday at the cinema we had to leave in the middle of the film cause my stress stomach started to destroy it all=/. Now I'm alright. But I have an urge to do everything that I havent done today.

3 months

Three months, 10 hours and about 15 min ago I landed outside Arlanda Airport, Stockholm, with flames out of the plane motors. I have been back in Sweden for three months. It feels a bit unreal. The year in Australia almost feels like a black hole somewhere years back in my life. I was so filled with anger, sadness and disappointment when I decided to leave forever four days before the Christmas break flight to Sweden. I am still filled with a lot anger, sadness and disappointment when I look back. What was my plan when I moved to the other side of the world and what happened?

The good side of the year: I met wonderful people that I'll always remember and love and hopefully keep contact with - Lizzy and Erika is the two diamonds. The two rocks that kept me hanging on in tough times, even though might had a hard time themselves. And I got so much life experiences - manage to live on my own and meet people, all alone, with no help (at the beginning) or contacts on the other side of the world - the first time moving from home.

Today I am alone for the first time in my familys flat. And I am happy. It feels so good to have some time alone. Even though I right away thought about having a friend over. But Im looking forward to quality time this weekend with people that means the most to me now. Back home.

You know. You loose contact with a lot people when you are away for a year. Its not hard nowadays to get the contact going again, but what keeps me away? What am I afraid of?


Sam Sparro - Black and Gold is still the favourite tune. It has been going for more than 24 hours on repeat, with a tiny break up with Mustasch songs tonight.

Over and out, sleep tight.

The love of my life

The love of my life is WATER. All sorts of water. The water you drink (at least Swedish wonderfull water), taking a bath, going for a swim in the lake or the ocean? Why not in the pool? I believe water is 'my' element. Most definitly. I just love it so much. There is nothing better. I wanna get an apartment with a big tub. That would be sooo great.

Water is the perfect playground as well!

Photo: Sophia Tollebrant

I wanna be next to you

cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold


Song of the day: Sam Sparro - Black & Gold

What would hospitals be without nurses?

Nurses are in general the most wonderful people in the world, the ones that took care of me in örebro, a couple of years ago, Lizzy in Australia and the wonderfull ones taking care of me this friday. Anyhow. They certainly not get the right appreciation. Not here in Sweden or in Australia.

And what would pain be without morphine? My favourite friend against the evil pain spririts this friday!

Baby. Kids. You know, that package.

When people are starting to get babies around you - you wake up - and with what reaction? I freak out. Panic. Wants to crawl underground or why not go out partying like an 18 yo?

In Australia I was on my first baby shower. Felt like just a couple of weeks after we got to know that she was pregnant, but she had Ellie just two weeks later!

This time it's someone of opposite gender. Someone that I dreamt about having a family life together with. That was six years ago and I was only a kid. Now Im the same age as he was then. And he is having a family, house, giant car - you know the whole package. What happen? What happened to these last six years? Heck a lot, but still, it doesnt feel so far away.

Second age freak out in six months. How can you slow time down?

Robyn

Swedish artist Robyn is back with the big boys. My new favourite tune (@ work 10 timmes/day) Sexual Eruption - Snoop Dogg ft Robyn





Another really good tune with Robyn, and interesting video is With Every Heartbeat - Kleerup feat Robyn

Sweat jacket

I have finally found myself a sweatjacket that I really like! It's a mens sweatjacket, but that's the only way for me to get the right armlength. And it's beautiful! From the brand SupremeBeing - love the brand. Want to buy entire collections!

Here's the sweatjacket that im going to buy (it's reversible as well! I think im gonna buy the white one...):




In sweden you can buy it online from Streetwear
Elsewhere at SupremeBeing's webshop!

Bad choise SVT

Swedish Television Channel that sends the swedish competitions for Eurovision song contest has made a really bad choice. For once people are watching the competetions. Because the music? No. Because of the Tv-host? No. Because this years comedian? Yes. Young comedian Björn Gustafsson is making a quick success by his presence. SVT has now choosen to not have him in this weekends episod (second chance). Which has made the audience to react. Let's say like this - It would probably half the amount of people watching on saturday compared to last week. I won't be watching anyway. Just because Björn Gustafsson isn't present.

Watch this clip even though you're not understanding Swedish! Björn is suppose to read a poem about love, but is doing something else...

Apple Bottom Jeans

At work, they are all going on about that I have to learn more about hiphop. - The music, style, how to move and so on. This is a song that plays a lot at work:

Apple Bottom Jeans:


We are actually selling clothes from the brand Apple Bottoms. Check these clothes out:



I truely want this beautiful fluffy thingy!

Brittish music

I love music from Great Britain (and Australia of course), It is something special with music from the island with the different mini-countries. An old favourite that I started to listen to the other day is Lamb. I got the single Gabriel sent to me from Isak years ago, before he made my homepage. I loved it straight away and that song got me into the Café del Mar cds (lounge music). I still lover Gabriel. Another favourite is Gorecki. Here is Gabriel...:



... and Gorecki:



Drink recommendation of the weekend:
* Drink glas
* crushed ice
* Havanna Club Blanco (DO NOT use Bacardi Rum)
* mint
* lime
* raw sugar
* lemonade
* a sour fruit/berries; raspberry, blueberries...

Pour 4 cl Havanna club, some crushed ice and a table spoon raw sugar in each glas. Crush lime (½-1 lime/glas) and mint (three-five leaves/glas) until it all is a nice soucy thing, pour raspberries in and crush them as well but not as much. Pour into to the glas along with some crushed ice. You should have a couple of centimeters to the top of the glas, fill it up with lemonade. Take a spoon and make sure to lift all the bottom jummie up to the top so it's all nicely mixed.

You've got yourself (and friends) a classic Raspberry Mojito.

Australian Idol

Tonight the last part/group competition for Swedens competition to choose the alternative for the Eurovision Song Contest. One of the performances tonight started off with a trumpet player (rest of the song was crap) and I started thinking about Australian Idol 2007. My favourite Carl Riseley had only been playing trumpet until just a short while before I auditioned for Australian Idol. His mission was to bring swing back. This is one of my favourite perfomances from him (he finished on third place):



And in the first round when the people in Australia could choose their favourites by voting, he definatly opened my eyes for him by singing Home with Micheal Buble:




Another really good artist was 16 (!) yo Matt Corby. He sang more or less the same sort of songs until he sang Evermores - It's too late. I loved that song before. I reckon he do a better job of it, believe it or not. Matt ended up on second place after Nathalie. Here is It's too Late by Matt corby:

Comfortable

Wouldn't mind feeling comfortable again. Like those weekends without doing anything, no thinking, just nothing except just being there right at that time. Living in the present time. No thoughts about yesterday or tomorrow. Just being. I think those weekends were pretty important to me. Very important. It helped me to forget about Australia for a while or looking for job or an unit. Today, I've got a job. I hopwfully got an apartment pretty soon. But other things has start to worry me. I'm thinking to much. I want to go back to one of those weekends. Just in a couch or the bed or playing around with the dog. Without any thoughts more than if I might need to drink or something.

Let me be comfortably numb again. Just for a couple of hours. Or why not an entire weekend?

What to do when you don't know what to do?

You know the kind of thing when you know what you should do, but you don't really know how or when. Or if you really want to?

What to do when you don't really know what you want to do?