Baby. Kids. You know, that package.

When people are starting to get babies around you - you wake up - and with what reaction? I freak out. Panic. Wants to crawl underground or why not go out partying like an 18 yo?

In Australia I was on my first baby shower. Felt like just a couple of weeks after we got to know that she was pregnant, but she had Ellie just two weeks later!

This time it's someone of opposite gender. Someone that I dreamt about having a family life together with. That was six years ago and I was only a kid. Now Im the same age as he was then. And he is having a family, house, giant car - you know the whole package. What happen? What happened to these last six years? Heck a lot, but still, it doesnt feel so far away.

Second age freak out in six months. How can you slow time down?

All at once

As most people around me has noticed lately I am a bit confused at the moment. I feel sorry for J who has to hear me during the late hours when my brains starts to ponder. This far in my life I have always been very planned and organised about my future. But since almost two months back everything has been plain, white, empty - call it whatever you like. No plan. No idea. What to do. It makes me confused. And very complainish. I don't like it. I've got some freelance stuff, maybe a fulltime job, the worlds best friends and family and someone to listen to me during the late hours;) So what am I complaining about? That's what I wonder every day. But I guess I left Australia too quickly, and didn't take care of myself there.

2007 in Australia was probabaly the longest and shortest, best and worse, happiest most sad year in my entire life. I guess I need to melt it or something. Sleep is probabaly the best medicine, so now it will be the bed for me!

Here's a song that has the same feel, if you ask me=)
Pete Yorn - All at once (I know the 'video' is crap but I dont know how to upload music only)