Big City Stress

It was a chaos in the subway today. An accident or suicide, I don't know. But my day got a bit turned up side down. Hours later I was going in the subway again. I sat down at Slussen just watching all the people running off and on the trains. For half an hour I was sitting there. Just watching. Thinking. Why do I run even if I'm not in a hurry? Why can't I see things around me, just thinking about the goal - where I'm going? Why do I get upset when I miss a train when the next one is coming five minutes later? Cause I'm not planning for five minutes delay. Not a second can be wasted.

You should try it. Take the next bus or train. Just wait up for a minute. And plan for at least five minutes delay so you don't have to run or get stressed out by anything. I'm gonna try to.

Easter holidays

Yep, it's already the LAST day of the easter holidays. Feels terrible. What happened to all of those days? What happened to everything I was suppose to do? Rebuild my website, go to at least two photographic exhibitions, swimming, 'do the city', hang out with my cousins and so on. Today is the last day and I've everything left to do. I'm going to my cousins in a couple of hours and then we're going to celibrate my fathers birthday. And then this day is gone with the wind again. The day before yesterday I started to scratch myself, which I do when I'm stressed, I didnt feel especially stressed. Yesterday at the cinema we had to leave in the middle of the film cause my stress stomach started to destroy it all=/. Now I'm alright. But I have an urge to do everything that I havent done today.