I've lost all of them.

I have now lost all of the male souls meaning the world to me (except my father). I lost Freddy 8th of December 2004. Grandpa 17th of May 2008 and now Ludde 30th of July 2008.

I've also lost (not physically) two men in my life that meant so much to me the last couple of weeks. I'm sorry but I can't continue. And I'm sorry that I don't feel the same as two years ago.

Been out dancing tonight at Cafe Opera in Stockholm with a girlfriend of mine. I didn't feel like dancing with any men, I just don't wanna get 'addicted' to another one breaking my heart by leaving in any sense.

I'm sad but there is no tears left to cry.


Rest in Peace Ludde, 5th of April 1996 - 30th of July 2008.