Roll the Dice

misses

2009-12-26T01:46:00.003+01:00

its been such a long time. long time since i wrote here for real. i miss it. though it got too personal. that wasnt my attention. but yet when i wanna write, its always about something personal and more often somethin negative than positive. i reckon thats why i stoped writing.

merry christmas. its been a good christmas. but i miss my love. i wish we could have some kinda christmas together.

its so cold, empty and quite here. no matter im listening to music. its all so empty and silent. i want you next to me. i love you. and i miss you. come home.

1 y of love

2009-11-20T20:53:00.001+01:00

Can't believe it's already been more than one year of love.

I love you. You have my heart and soul. I'm all yours. Yours to keep.

Photo from Berlin 2009

a beautiful friend

2009-10-08T11:03:00.003+02:00

im listening to a beautiful friend. for the first time more or less in 1,5 years. i saw him live the night grandpa got really sick. it still hurts every day. grandpa was a beautiful friend, my best friend. i miss you.

14th of July 2001 in Trosa

Shooooes

2009-10-01T20:03:00.000+02:00

I want these now!!!

Long time no see!

2009-09-10T17:01:00.003+02:00

Hey ya!

Why did I leave the blogging? What happened, I love it, so what happened?

Spring '09 - I more or less lived at my boyfriends place, with no computor and both studying and working.

Summer '09 - Lots of work and travel

Autumn 09' - I've begun to study to become a project manager for building sites. so there is absolutly no time. But I'll try to start again. New food, new programs (eg. Photoshop, AutoCad) and stuff.

Here's Texas during my week this summer living in a house with him.

Berlin

2009-07-18T23:28:00.001+02:00

Too tired to write, here's some pics=) Good weekend last week anyway!

Song of the week

2009-06-26T20:44:00.001+02:00

My new found favourite song:
Alphabeat with Fascination

New Spotify playlist

Germany

2009-06-24T23:27:00.003+02:00

I don't think I've told you, but I'm gonna be going to Germany again in early July with love, but this time not only for passing. This time we're flying to Berlin for a four days weekend, staying at a sweet hotel with king size bed and breakky until 1 pm!!! I'm really looking forward to it!

Here's my favourite photo of Texas and his sister Zaphira, both 1 yo last week!

Spotify

2009-06-18T14:31:00.002+02:00

Ok, I love shoes. I also love music. From the "beginning" mostly rock and hard rock. The in 2007 I moved to Australia and by some reason started to listen to Swedish schlager as well as a lot of the fantastic aussie music. At my new job in the beginning of 2008 the art director was also a House DJ. After three months of hate towards that music I started to like it, then loving it.

The last year my "music style" has been mixed up completly - old rock'n'roll, dance, house, hard rock, pop...

If you have Spotify, here are some playlists I've made today:

Old Rock/Rockabilly

Soul/disco 70-80's

Shoes!

2009-06-18T13:12:00.003+02:00

I love shoes! Sneakers, high heels, boots - shoooooes! In Australia I bought a lot of beautiful high heeled shoes. I got a call for about an hour ago from Erika, my dearest friend at the sunny coast. She was holding a new pair of Simona Ricci in her hands asking if she should buy them. Soooo I'm getting a package with shoes in a couple of weeks from Australia! Thank you darling!

She sent me this photo, perfect shoes for dancing for however long I feel like (with a pair like does approx. 9h without pain!)

Congratulations Bro'!

2009-06-15T18:05:00.002+02:00

10th of June 2009

way

2009-06-15T16:06:00.001+02:00

there s a way I know
there s a way I know
there s a way I know
someday someday I know
there s a way I know

Guitar

2009-06-09T12:48:00.003+02:00

I've always wanted to be able to be awesome at some instrument. Was playing piano, keybord, tried drums, guitar and bass. Even flute. But I sucked, no patience to get good/no musical gift. When I was like 17 I decided to do a new try with guitar. A couple of years later I sold the guitar to my cousin. He is now almost 15 and is awesome with guitars. Here's one improvised song by Albin:

Extremly annoyed. Still.

2009-06-04T14:22:00.002+02:00

God damn it. Working my ass off. For what? Cleaning up after people that doesn't care. Work 24/7 taking all of my energy. Is it worth it?

Where did my positive energy go?

We are the people

2009-06-02T22:33:00.001+02:00

We are the people - Empire of the Sun

Shopping Spree/investments;)

2009-06-02T22:27:00.002+02:00

I know, I've been really bad at writing here.. Sorry about that. Just too much school and work and I have now also moved into my boyfriends flat. Anyhow I've been spending some money lately.

Last week we went to a special Filippa K/Café/Elle night at Filippa K on Grev Turegatan. With some cold beer and stylists mingling around I spent some money on a linen tee and a pair of men's shoes. Very beautiful clothes/shoes.

Today I went to Monki, trying to find another of my favourite black skirt. Of course it had been sold out three times! But I bought a pair of tights, one stripy tee and a black giant singlet. All for 120 SEK less than only the Filippa K tee I bought last week...

I'll try to get some photos for you!

Searching

2009-05-15T15:02:00.004+02:00

I'm searching through my calendars, looking for a day with NOTHING planned. A day when I can sleep aaaaall day, eat pancakes, bake something unhealthy, walking around feeling fabulous, doing whatever I feel like! It's been about 1,5 month now with work and/or studies every single day. I had my last mathematics exam yesterday and physics today... Tomorrow work. Should have been doing some laundry now, but can't make myself to do it.

After the exam today I went for some shopping since I managed to trash C's bedlinen (they were a little bit broken before, but since I'm not sleeping in the same spot all night they wouldn't stay that way). I've been thinking about buying Lexington and/or Gant but I decided to have a look at the Swedish brand Himla. I left with one giant white sheet and two beautiful white/turquoise/green stripey duvet covers. And two Black/white kitchen towels. I also went into a lingerie shop and got myself a new bikini - zebra stripes and silver attachments kinda. Looking all foxy, hahahahaha.
Just wish I could get a tan like that!!

Tonight: dinner at C's, relaxing, training at the gym and movie, sleeeeeeep!

Tomorrow: work, picking up Texas, having him and watching Eurovision Song Contest with C.

Can't wait until monday when I can sleep until 10am!!! Then work again...

Luxembourg - done

2009-05-12T20:05:00.002+02:00

C and I went to Luxembourg saturday to monday this weekend. It was a good weekend at Hugo and Rosaria's. They are really nice and Italian Rosaria makes fantastic food. The weekend included: car travels around the country, castles, heights, food, party, beer, soccer, city walking and so much love! Great weekend! Thank you all!

Luxembourg

2009-05-07T22:28:00.003+02:00

I'm packing my bag. A bag for a trip, a trip that includes planes. I just found my passport! On really early Saturday morning C and I are leaving Stockholm, Sweden for a weekend in Luxembourg with his friend Hugo and beautiful Italian girlfriend Rosaria. I hope it won't be raining too much.

Sadly my left hip is not doing to well. Shouldn't be sitting just walking or laying down. So tomorrow at lunch I'm going to fix my muscles, then buying lots of muscle relaxing gel's for the weekend.

Why I'm not writing so much at the moment? I'm studying 75% and having the last two giant tests next week and having a rather new job on 50-100% that has been taking too much time these weeks.

Give me a couple of weeks and everything will be fine again. Until then I'll keep doing things I never do: forgetting my keys or mobile phone in different places, jumping on the wrong train, not getting off a train in time, hurting myself, dropping things, smashing plates (not on purpose), being hyper or completely zero'd and so on...

I will be back in my old strong me soon, I promise! Until then, take care!

Ciao!

250

2009-05-05T16:33:00.000+02:00

How?!

2009-05-03T22:22:00.002+02:00

How do you manage to this? Anyone who saw it happening? Odengatan 7th of April

too much

2009-04-27T22:26:00.000+02:00

it's just too much. fucked. up. sleep. bye.

Warmth

2009-04-27T12:46:00.003+02:00

It's a very hot day for being in Sweden in April... And all the trees and flowers are going off at the same time - result? I can't breath, just like a lot of other Swedes. It's hard enough to walk, it's a very scary feeling, trying to breath. Anyhow. Went to my babe #2 - Texas. Just had to get out for a while and feel some unconditional love. Look at him! Such a gorgeous dog!

I've been feeling quit gorgeous today as well, for once=) People in cars waving and/or beeping the horn... Such a Swedish thing to find it offensive, I enjoy it, come on they find me looking good, of course I'm allowed to take it as a compliment! YOU should do that as well! Guys are not looking at you cause they are a pervert (not always anyway...) they're looking cause they find you gorgeous, take it as a compliment and move on for Christ sake instead of complaining.

Outfit of the day:
New dark blue shoes from Tiamo
Dark Blue 10th anniversary jeans from Acne Jeans
Oversized A-shaped white tee from H&M
Scarf, vintage from 1978
Pilot sunnies (fake from AUS)
Short black leather jacket
Undies from Calvin Klein
Black bag from Friis Company
Giant green bag from TATE (London museum)

please do not let me go

2009-04-25T21:57:00.000+02:00

Help!

2009-04-20T20:21:00.001+02:00

Help me figure out a new hairstyle! I really have to cut my hair off, if could afford it I would get extensions... Might be quit nice with less hair in the summer "heat" as well.. What do you reckon??

confused

2009-04-19T23:37:00.000+02:00

Please help me straightening my thoughts out. Why can't i just relax? Enjoy the moment? Take things for what they are?

love

2009-04-15T09:37:00.000+02:00

let's grow old together

Is this the price of love?

2009-04-08T12:09:00.003+02:00

Yesterday, babe and I cleaned the apartment and whilst doing the dishes I hear this fantastic intro to a song. And the song just grows to this big awesome thing. I've heard it before at his place, but this time I heard it just completely rocked my world. Listen and enjoy: White Lies - Price of love

If you have spotify: http://open.spotify.com/track/2NE4r206qIInA3KL7NDFs9

Birthday!

2009-04-07T15:22:00.004+02:00

Alrighty. So now I'm another year older. Hmm... It's been a good birthday weekend though. Got a package from BettieLi filled with makeup, some wonderful minerals from Taylor Made Minerals. Fantistic to work with. I wish I would be a bit better with make up though... Hmm.. Here's my party make up with make up from Make Up Store, Clinique and Taylor Made Minerals after several hours:
And my outfit, Leggings, black skirt from Monki and my birthday gift to myself: the top from Forever21 bought at Kameleonten.
For the first time I made myself a couple of princess cakes for the evenings (really nice actually):

Going wrong

2009-04-06T10:43:00.002+02:00

They say I shouldn't be scared about saying what I feel like, making decisions or doing stuff. So when I let go a bit what happens? It's all wrong. Always. Stepping on toes. I better just shut up. Not getting involved. Not being social. No decisions. Cause apparently I might loose you otherwise. And I don't want that for anything in the world.

The Sounds

2009-04-02T16:32:00.001+02:00

I think I did alright for being a first-timer/rookie. Here are some of the The Sounds shots. Check out more on www.flickr.com/photos/sophiatollebrant

Copyright Sophia Tollebrant Photography

Peter, Bjorn and John

2009-04-02T16:29:00.003+02:00

I think I did alright for being a first-timer/rookie. Here are some of the Peter, Bjorn and John shots. Check out more on www.flickr.com/photos/sophiatollebrant

Copyright Sophia Tollebrant Photography

Dogs

2009-04-01T16:55:00.002+02:00

I love dogs. I prefer bigger dogs. Tiny dogs are more like rats. I found people dressing their dogs ridiculous but after seeing dogs shivering I reckon clothes are quit good, especially for poor dogs who isn't supposed to be living in a freezing country like sweden. When I shot the model Sam in Australia he told me and my assistant a story about a woman walking her tiny dog along the water front, suddenly this shark jumps up and eats it. I just found it so unbelievably hilarious. I can still laugh my heart out about it today 1,5 years later. There are so many tiny dogs in the building I'm living in, I'm scared to kill them by stepping on them or whilst closing the door. Today I read a blogg post about something similar, it still gets me laughing. You can read it here (swedish)!

Breakky smoothie

2009-04-01T09:22:00.001+02:00

Today's breakky smoothie:

* One apple
* One pear
* frozen mango
* frozen raspberry

MIX IT!

Live/promo shots

2009-03-31T21:26:00.003+02:00

Tomorrow I will take my first real live photographs at a concert. I did take photos on a jazz gig at Fasching Jazz Club in 2006, but I barely knew my camera at that time. So I am very nervous, especially since my camera can't take high ISO and that's what it takes... So we'll see if I'll show you some later on...

This one of my favourite live shots:

Salem al Fakir
Copyright: Christian Ekblad

This blog

2009-03-31T14:36:00.004+02:00

I've had this blog since late January 2008. The last couple of months the amount of visitors has increased. It's not a giant amount of visitors compared to other blogs, but I find it exciting!

This map is from my Google Analytics account (great stuff!) and shows a map over where my visitors are oriented. Yeah, sure most of the ones all over the world hasn't returned to my site, but I do have some returning from USA, Australia and England (a part from Sweden of course...) WHO ARE YOU guys? Is there anything special you find interesting? Swedish readers, does it bug you that I write in English? Would anyone of you want me to write more or less about something?

Shopping

2009-03-30T18:09:00.003+02:00

Today I bought myself a top from Forever21 at Kameleonten. A really nice black party top with open back. Great with jeans, chinos or skirts. Last week I felt like shopping at Supremebeing's homepage as well, they have some of my favourite clothes on sale... God damn it. And I miss the brand Miso. Why can't we have brands like american Forever21, british Miso or Australian Morocco in Sweden? Awesome dresses, pretty cheap, not the best quality, but how often do you actually use dresses for years and years? Some yes, of course, those classical ones I'd buy from big quality brands. But seasonal party clothes - these brands are perfect. Not even H&M has a chance compared to them neither in style or price.

A dead snake

2009-03-30T17:19:00.000+02:00

Busy

2009-03-29T21:35:00.004+02:00

Since I'm getting more and healthy I'm also getting more and more close to my life before. My life before was filled with events and spontaneous happenings. My life for the last 6-12 months has been less and less outgoing, going to less events and only attending planned stuff. There are of course good and bad parts about going back to previous ways of living. So now I'm trying to figure out a life inbetween.

Anyhow, this weekend. Went to C, went shopping, he made the best pizza with every part of the pizza made by him (terrible wine though....), then we went to a opening night of an exhibition/photo battle with 10 of Sweden's best fashion photographers. For more information check this link!

We left quit early to Cobra Bar where my ex Art Director Fredrik from a past job had a good bye party/Dj session. It was good seeing him again, talking some shit and wishing him good luck in New York at a practice for six months! It's all his fault why I enjoy house music, he played fantastic tunes whilst we where there. You can follow his journey on the NudeYork website in a few days, I'll keep you posted.

Today I was supposed to go shopping for some birthday dinners with my pears, but I got this migraine so it was just to jump right into the bed and sleep for almost six hours with some pills... I missed out on the swim training session as well, that's the worse part. I really enjoy it and calling 1,5 h before and cancel is probably not popular for a five-six yo kid...

Now I'll try to watch a couple of old Sex and the City episodes and then sleeeep!

Finally!

2009-03-28T10:31:00.003+01:00

It's Saturday. I don't really have the time to sit here, but hey, sometimes you just can't avoid it... Very soon I'll be at C's place. I've been looking forward to this all week. We met shortly this Thursday before one of his photo shoots, I just felt how much I missed him. I will still mostly study at his place, but just being in the same apartment is a feeling of joy and relief kinda.

Fantastic tune by John Mayer - Dreaming with a broken heart

The show dance

2009-03-28T00:11:00.000+01:00

Fantastic!

Contemporary Dance

2009-03-27T22:46:00.003+01:00

Tonight it was the Swedish final of Let's Dance (Dancing with the stars). Laila Bagge lost against the worlds (any more?) strongest man Magnus. Typical Swedish thing to vote on the underdog. The less good one. Tonight actually the bad one.

Anyhow, I love dance. I've been dancing salsa, jive and samba. Not especially good, but I'd love to give it all a lot more time and chances. So, I have been watching programs like So you think you can dance, especially whilst living in Australia. Apparently my samba teacher, Gianne was in the top 10 of Australia's So you think you can dance this year. In the American version Mia Michels usually do the contemporary routines. Here are a couple of my favourites:

Laila and Tobias last show number was a contemporary routine. It's not avaiable yet though. But compare it to these videos when I upload it later on and that there is not that much of a difference between celeb Laila and the proffessional dancers...

Are you serious?!

2009-03-27T14:38:00.001+01:00

Texas has a crisis

2009-03-26T19:36:00.004+01:00

Ok. The dog, Texas, is soon to be nine months old. He is almost 50 cm high and weights somewhere around 17 kgs. Since the beginning he's been a crazy puppy running around, biting and playing with everyone, never a cuddly dog (except when really tired). For the last couple of weeks he's getting better and better with our exercises and listens a lot better. And he's started to be cuddly and jump up in my lap and sit there. Like as if I would be able to do anything with him there (I'm not a tiny person, so there is room...)! I think he is having a personality crisis and reckon he's a tiny dog, a lap dog.

Video from me and Texas training on the balance....

Today

2009-03-25T19:29:00.002+01:00

Today I went on an interview. I want that job. So much. I love the company and the people are great. It would be so perfect. Fingers crossed people!

I'm having problem with the maths in school. It's not enjoyable at all. Not easy in any way. And since I realised that I doesn't necessarily need the course I kinda lost the tiny motivation I had to make it through. My motivation to do it anyway is that I've decided that I can't see my boyfriend before the test unless I have studied a lot more than now. And I really wanna see him! I prefered when we were almost living together, don't like being away from him or in my tiny (but cheap) room. Things you have to do whilst studying/trying to make it as a photographer...

Luxembourg here we coooome!

2009-03-24T20:43:00.005+01:00

Yesterday we paid our tickets. Finally a trip planned!!! Yeeeees! C and I will go to Frankfurt - Luxembourg in early May, seeing one of his best friends and beautiful Italian girlfriend. This is soooo good. I'm so happy! Hopefully we'll be able to go to Alicante as well. It depends on how my economic situation will be at that time. I'd love to go to Italy as well. And dreaming about winning on Lotto so I can bring my love to my home in 2007 - Sunny Coast, Australia. Just enjoy the days in the surf, at Riba Kai at the Sunshine Plaza in Maroochydore drinking ice coffee (milk, ice cream, cream, coffee), laying in the sand at the wakeboard park shooting awesome photographs, bbq in the sunset, getting dress in wonderfull dresses, drinking asti with Erika and dancing at Vibes and Fridays/Wharf Tavern all night loooong! Having a pizza slize and coke in the sand with the feet in the water watching the sun rise over the Pacific Ocean. My looooord I miss those parts!

No see

2009-03-16T21:26:00.002+01:00

Gosh, time has just been running passed. Sorry I haven't had time to write anything for a while. It's been my fathers birthday! Congrats Daddy! A part from that, an exam, lots of cleaning, cooking, laundry, walking, thinking, studying, party and of course hanging out with my love.

Today I had some mathematics. I need to step the game up now. For sure. It's too hard to just tag a long.

It's been one of those days when I reckon no human being is beautiful, sexy, cute, nothing - just ugly stuff on two legs. It's a very weird feeling, usually I'm walking around looking for models and beautiful people in general. But no-one caught my attention in any good way today.

Hahahaha

2009-03-05T15:59:00.001+01:00

Chameleon

2009-03-05T14:13:00.004+01:00

Am I a chameleon, afraid to be having a different look or just doesn't wanna take a side? When it comes to clothes that is. I've always seen myself as a chameleon, changing look/outfits after where I'm going/doing. Or putting on clothes that's the opposite of the rest (when I was like 12-17yo). I don't think anyone that knows me would say that I'm having a certain style. I've always seen that as a good thing or is it just weak? That I can't make a stand? I'm getting interested in different kinda fashion depending on what people I'm hanging out with. But without loosing other styles. One day I may be wearing proper "office"clothes, the other day super skinny jeans and a oversized tee or why not a fancy dress, perfect hair, high heels? Sometimes I wish I had one style. And the drive to get up a bit earlier every morning to get the outfit and make-up perfect every single day. But no, instead I look fancy one day, trashy another or lawyerish the next. What kinda style do you reckon I have? What style should I try to get into? What should I avoid?

Outfit of the day:
80's/90's look...
* The Petroff über80's pilot jacket from 1982
* High waisted normal fit Levi's
* Foo Fighters band tee
* Fluffy blonde hair under a snow white loose fit beanie
* Nike Blazer
* Red skin belt

Outfit of the day

2009-03-04T19:22:00.002+01:00

A bit different today (not that I always look the same...):

* Superskinny high waiste jeans, dark blue from Wire
* Nike Blazer Special Edition from Trampolin (white/yellow)
* Red singlet from Tessie
* Oversized white tee with a lion print from Gina Tricot
* Hoody from Zoo York
* Original Pilot Jacket from Peltroff (Vintage)

just look and listen

2009-03-04T10:03:00.000+01:00

Australia

2009-03-03T19:37:00.002+01:00

Today, me and grand ma went for a lunch after school and another (!) trip to the cinema. Yes, third time in 8 days. We saw Australia (2008). I hadn't heard too much positive critics about it. But I really liked it. Very long though, almost 3 hours. It was kinda like two movies in one. After less than half I thought it was the end, but it all continued. I felt quit emotional a couple of times during the movie. It moved me, need less to day. Anyhow, I reckon you should see it, and at the cinemas if you get a chance whilst it still on!

Grey

2009-02-27T16:18:00.005+01:00

Man, this week as gone by as a breeze... It's crazy. Five days off and they disappear before your eyes.

I spent the Monday with my cousins and brother watching Madagascar 2 on the movie s and just hanging out. Good day. Tuesday. During the Tuesday I actually managed to put myself together sorting papers and working a bit. Left everything upside down though and went to C. Wednesday. My every week appointment and the off to Espresso House on Kungsgatan where Tove works. I had lunch there. And coffee. Mocha Latte. And tried Chai Latte for the first time, hated it at first, came down to liking it at the end though. Then a cappuccino and muffin. I sat there for more than three hours. Bought cream buns for my parents at Gateau and then home. The off to Plantagen (a shop for flowers, planting and stuff) and City Gross. Got back with Mr at about half past seven, starving. Thursday. Went to my cousins again, picked the older one up - went to central Stockholm. Shopping. We managed to get five t-shirts and one cardigan for 533 SEK. I wish I could buy stuff that cheap! Then we met our grandma and the other cousin for another round at the movie s. Bolt. Dinner in Bromma again. Fabulous food and wine as always! Friday. Went to a shoe-maker on Roslagsgatan getting my newer pair of Fornarina Boots fixed. That's about it.

During my hours at Espresso House two gorgeous women came in there. You know, the natural kinda beauty that anyone would kill for, that I would kill for working with! ANyhow, one of those girls were wearing a pair of tight grey jeans. I haven't liked grey jeans before. But I find myself loving them on these trained/skinny girls out on the street. These are one of my favourite pairs on the market from Acne:

what did we just loose?

2009-02-23T22:49:00.003+01:00

We can't see what we don't believe
we can't dream of reality
with our heads in the clouds
and our hands in the air
we try to catch something
but nothing is there

we fall down before we start
we only want to play our part
Yeah our minds are a wash
with all this talk
Am I making sense?

Tell me honey can we ever find the truth?
tell me honey will we ever see one view?
I can't connect if I can't relate to you
and we can't accept what we do not get to choose
tell me honey, what is it we do?
remind me honey, what did we just lose?

You know I've tried to understand
I know you've tried to hold my hand
But try as I will I can not see
am I making sense?

Tell me honey can we ever find the truth?
tell me honey will we ever see one view?
I can't connect if I can't relate to you
and we can't accept what we do not get to choose
tell me honey, what is it we do?
remind me honey, what did we just lose?

Honey - Lovers Electric

I've only heard the song Honey in a house version until I found the original on youtube. But here you got my favourite version, the house one:

Antoher really nice song in one of my 1,5 hours long house remixes is Pnau - Embrace:

Birthday dinner outfit

2009-02-20T19:32:00.003+01:00

Yesterday we had a three course dinner at "Den gamle och havet". Very nice restaurant with fantastic food. Enormous portions and a bit to high sound level though, the only minus'. We were there celebrating grandma's 70th Birthday.

My look for the night (might get a photo from the people with camera later on):
* Black shirt dress
* Black tights
* Black really high healed Fornarina Leather/wool boots
* Black cardigan from Billabong
* Black belt with gold details (Vintage)
* Black leather/gold purse (Vintage)

* Straight fluffy blonde hair, very light makeup, a bit rocky-black around my eyes and a very red lipstick.

My cousins (11 and 9 yo) thought I looked like the Swedish artist Amanda Jensen (I reckon because of the blonde hair and red lips...)
Photos of Amanda Jensen from her website

hair

2009-02-20T18:06:00.005+01:00

I've been blonde since I was a kid. Really blonde, like a lot of other swedes. Sadly for me it didn't continue that way, no. Since almost 8-9 yrs back I've been doing foils to control my blondeness. I've had long hair, short, very short, weird hairstyles, cool hairstyles, Robyn-hair... Usually I change my hairstyle radically twice a year by my London hairstylist Charlie. Inbetween I'm going to some more conservative hairdresser who just "straightens" the earlier look. I'm tired of my hair the way it is now. Charlie wants to cut it off. I don't, I want looooong platina blonde hair and some nice fringe. These are some of the styles and colours through the years:
Probably the most common hairstyle throughout the years since I was a kid, midlong blonde.

"Rock-cut" Almost a bit 80's/90's hockey hair...

Straight, big fringe and coloured in one brown and a really cold, almost grey blonde colour on top.

Graduation curly

The haircut that was the third - all-getting-shorter-hair-cut by Charlie. Just before easter, into the morning paper all over Sweden... I hated it. Bought a cap and big black sunnies the day after. Didn't return to Charlie for about 1,5 yrs...

My favourite hair cut by Charlie throughout the years. Half into a bob, the rest long and really straight - platina blonde.

What do you reckon I should do with my hair?

Happy Birthday Grandma'!!!

2009-02-19T15:32:00.002+01:00

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear grandmaaaaaa, happy birthday to you!!!

It was great fun surpricing you this early morning! I hope you enjoyed it! I better jump into the shower soon, so I will have a chance to make myself a bit pretty for tonight! Can't wait!

Love you grandma, what would I do without you?

Brittis, 70 years, today 19th of February 2009!

Valentine

2009-02-16T19:28:00.003+01:00

Alrighty. Valentine's day. Two years ago I was having my third week in Australia on Valentine's Day. Nathan took me out in one of his old cars. You know flowers, drinks, opening doors and so on. It was an absurd experience. The restaurant were full of only couples. No tables for more than two persons. It felt so weird, especially since there were no feelings between us. Not from my side anyway. But that's the only "real" Valentine's Day I've had.

This saturday I did spend time with my man, but not sitting in a row of couples on a restaurant - just by having a quiet night together. I had been planning some presents/surprices, but they all crashed. So I ended up with nothing to him. Not even a rose. That's bad. I got a couple of presents! My headphones has been getting worse and worse lately, since I haven't got the money I had to use iPod/Sony Ericsson headset. But in the box it was these beautiful Red Hot Koss Porta Pro headphones. My looord! Finally I can enjoy music the way I want to again - all the time, everywhere. And the red colour makes the match my mobile phone, my gloves and my satin coloured nails. Red Hot;)Since I love sweats I also got some heart shaped jelly candy.

Slack day

2009-02-12T17:15:00.002+01:00

Laboration in school. p=mv and stuff like that. Sooo tired. Been sleeping terribly bad this week. 4h, 6h and 5h this night. It sucks. Yesterday I fell asleep on the lesson and I was about to today as well. After school I've been slacking. Even the clothes I put on this morning was as made for a slack day.

* Levis Engineered Baggy Jeans
* Tight singlet from G-star Raw
* Loose fit mens t-shirt from Levis (no, hun, I haven't taken yours=))
* Comfy undies from Björn Borg
* Hoody from Zoo York
* Bag from Everest

Hilarious

2009-02-12T17:10:00.002+01:00

I don't remember if I ever showed you this clip... The back up singer is an ex collegue from the place I worked on last year. He wasn't feeling to good about this. We all understood why after seeing this.
Paul Pin2 - Snabba cash

Cream Bun

2009-02-11T22:08:00.002+01:00

The yearly tradition of eating yourself fat before easter is still going strong even though most of is not fasting. And it starts right after Christmas instead of 20th-something of February. Anyhow, I did love Cream Buns/Semlor (as we say in Sweden) a lot before. Now a half is enough, and not too many/season. I've managed to taste five different Semlor this far. Now there will only be one more on the 20th of something. This is the ones that I've tasted, price and amount of points considering taste, looks and in comperation to the price.

1. Gateau - The winner!
They have both mini ones for 20 kr (perfect size) and big ones for 32 kr. The size, shape and consistency is perfect. The almond icing is wonderful and even the cream is really nice and at the perfect amount. But I still think that over 30 kr (not even 25 if I would get to choose) is too much for this, so that's what brings the grade down.
4 of 5 pts

2. Linquists
The actual bun wasn't the best and too much cream, really nice taste though and alright price - 28 kr.
3 of 5

2. Boulevard Café & Conditori
Just something missing. A bit too big and the cream wasn't the freshest. Unknown price.
3 of 5

4. NK
Should be the best, but no-no. Expensive 38 kr!!! And rather small (very much enough for one person, but compared to the others).
2,5 of 5

4. 7-Eleven
19 kr and alright. A bit more than alright actually. I can amaging that a very fresh 7-Eleven bun would be awesome.
2,5 of 5

Todays clothing

2009-02-09T21:32:00.004+01:00

Today I was wearing:

* Boots from Fornarina
* My new green pants from Minimum
* Wonderful socks from Nike
* Undies from WESC and bra from Target (!)
* Singlet from G-star Raw
* Top from Mexx
* Jacket from Stockhlm
* Beanie from Svea
* The new red gloves from Handskmakarn
* Pearl bracelet from SNÖ

Colour

2009-02-03T21:06:00.003+01:00

Today I spent money shopping. Yeah. The first time since october. That was a Famous STars and Straps tee for 120 SEK. This time I went to the shop Katitzi (?)on Odengatan. A cool tiny shop with small exclusive brands and vintage. Not my type of clothes but i've decided to change around in my wardrobe! Especially add some colour. I asked for help and tried an amazing amount of clothes. Came out with skin gloves and green chinos. Before I bought a pair of pink Björn Borg sneakers. So today I shopped enough for february...=) I love swedish and Danish design!!

Björn Borg

Gloves from Handskkompaniet/micho

Chinos from Minimum

Feeeeever

2009-01-31T10:16:00.000+01:00

38,4 degrees

Sicker and sicker

2009-01-30T18:02:00.003+01:00

Been sick since wednesday morning. Yesterday I had a temp of 36,9 degrees. At 4 o'clock today it was 37,6 and now, two hours later 38,2... This is not going too well. I've been sleeping and watching the following movies:

* Devil wears Prada (3,5 of 5) Perfect movie when you don't feel like thinking...
* Into the wild (4 of 5) Not really my type of movie, but awesome
* Pineapple Express (0 of 5) tried to watch it to the end, so worthless drugs movie
* The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (4 of 5) really nice movie, just a bit too long 2h and 45 min

Pride and glory for tomo...

Take care

Cold or flu?

2009-01-29T11:11:00.003+01:00

I'm really sick since yesterday. I was pretty much fine on tuesday, my legs were painful, but a part from that, nothing special. Woke up on wednesday morning, feeling more dead than alive. It's even worse today. I'm finally out of the bed at least, into the sofa though. Wish you could get a hold of drugs like in aussie, just cold and flu tablettes would probably save me. Anyhow, back to some movies under a blanket.

Wonderful song:

Breathe - Telepopmusic

Roller Coaster

2009-01-23T16:06:00.002+01:00

My mood has been a freaking roller coaster today. Really tired. Been sleeping really badly the last months. I've been happy, angry, sad, zero'd. Most of all tired and longing for a big hug from my love.

Starting to use Bloggy.se a lot, so I kinda forget about writing here. I would love to have a mix of this blog and bloggy.se. I wanna write a bit more than 148 characters but not necessarily a 1000. I wanna be able to add pictures, music and videos and also by mobile phone. Create something with best of both worlds!

Worried. I'm worried. My lovely host mum Lizzie in Australia hasnt been replying any of my emails the last three months. I wonder if something has happened. I truely hope not. Paul hasnt answered on his phone or email for months either. Everyone else gets my messages. What's wrong?

Another day in progressive house land. Today songs: Delerium - In this silence and Armin van Buuren - If you should go

House music/DJ'ing

2009-01-21T16:14:00.003+01:00

Once again I'm stuck into house music. Today Progressive House. Found a remix with most of the best progressive house songs of 2007-2008. The remix is 2,5 hours long and has been going on and on for a couple of days and nights now. I'd really love to start remix and dj'ing myself. Anyone having any suggestions for good inspiration, sites or programs? Please comment!

200!

2009-01-19T18:48:00.002+01:00

Wow this is my 200'd post in this blog, sweeet!

It's pretty ironic that it'll be about another blogg. I have now started my own micro blog on bloggy.se - it's in Swedish though. http://fia.bloggy.se I like the site more and more for each and every day. Haven't really get started yet though. The hardest part is to write in Swedish. I'm a swinglish person, both when speaking and writing. Anyhow, check it out if you like. I can upload songs there! And very easily update it by mobile. Wooohooo!

Vicky Cristina Barcelona

2009-01-19T10:18:00.002+01:00

Yesterday we watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona. I did not like it. It made me sad. Is love not suppose to be the only real thing? The honest feeling? Are there no perfect matches? No life long satisfaction? Do you have to get interested in the surroundings? Try your love by risking it. It scares me. It makes me sad.

Ida in town!

2009-01-16T18:10:00.003+01:00

Stockholm became unsafe on wednesday night. Ida arrived to Stockholm from Gothenburg. I had lunch with her today before my mathematics course at Espresso House on Vasagatan. Tonight we'll be watching Let's Dance with my parents. Feels good to have a medium quite night, social on a friday-tired-level. Too bad she's leaving tomo though=( I expect her back for my birthday at least!

Public Transport

2009-01-14T20:40:00.003+01:00

The puplic transport in Stockholm, Sweden in genereal I think, is quit good. Even though few people are willing to acknoledge that. You see, in Sweden we always have to complain about everything even if it's good, that's what driving us to always be better. But that also makes us into a bunch of pretty negative persons. Some of us anyway.

Anyhow, back to the public transport. Since I have started in school and it's winter I have to use the public transport. During hours when everyone is using it. I hate it.
* You have to wait all the time, it's just a long waiting
* You get sick. People coughs and being nasty in general way too near you
* Bad drivers - wryneck. Fuck man, some buss drivers... Still nothing compared to the drivers on the Sunshine Coast, but still...

I can't wait 'til some warmth so I can use my bike instead. Perfect training as well. I miss it.

Keeping me from killing you

2009-01-14T11:04:00.002+01:00

A Perfect Circle - Orestes

Microblog

2009-01-13T16:03:00.002+01:00

Today you can read about an old friend of mine at IDG.se, or his work. He created the micro blog site bloggy.se. Read the article here (swedish)!

Love you a little bit less

2009-01-13T11:47:00.002+01:00

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

You broke me and I can't feel anything.

I try to hold on but it hurts too much
I try to forgive but it's not enough to make it all ok

The truth hurts and lies worse
I love you a little bit less

James Morrison - Broken Strings

I can feel again. I can love but I need his heart. I believe I'm ready to love.

The On-Button

2009-01-12T17:06:00.004+01:00

First day in school. First day in a real school for more than 2,5 years. I should know about the things the teacher went through today. But I didn't know or understand a thing. It's not that weird, it was 4 years since I did anything like that.

Can someone please tell me how to find my on-button to my brain? My brain has been on passive mode for 2,5 years and almost off for 1,5 years. Is there a general manual for human kind or does it have to be individual? The progress my brain has done the last 2 years is shutter speeds, focal leangth and other stuff within photography, english and Guitar Hero. That's the amount of new intelligent stuff entering my brain the last years.

Pause.se

2009-01-12T10:50:00.003+01:00

I got some tips about a blog written by a swedish photographer, Emma Svensson. She's writing on pause.se about her every day life and photography of course! At the moment you can win a chance to get some coaching in your photography. Have a look here!

Today I took a proper look on pause.se and found this article about men and sex. Absolutly hilarious and probably true=)
Check it!

Xmas present

2009-01-11T23:20:00.006+01:00

On the 23rd of December C and I gav our Christmas gifts to eachother. I got this beautiful and very comfy morning robe and some photos with lyrics explaining what would happen on the 10th of January. Listen closely all men out there and use at least a piece or two of these for your lady some day! It will be extremly appreciated!
06.30 - alarm, time to get up!
07.30 - breakky at some local café
09.00 - Centralbadet (relax/spa/swimming sorta place) training in the gym, swimming in the pool, thermalpool and jacuzi.
12.00 - lunch at some nice café/diner
13.00 - powernap
14.00 - soccer game! Oh yeah
16.00 - shower, makeup
19.00 - Dinner at some awesome restuarant - we went to Lo Scudetto, absolutely one of the best places in Stockholm.
21.30 - Coctails at a sweet coctailbar

What can I tell you? Best present in my life (from family excluded, don't get sad now;-))!!!

Thank you for a wonderful weekend, again, love!

[Photos from garywritesablog.com and SvD]

The dress of New Year 08/09

2009-01-08T21:40:00.000+01:00

The final choose came down to the Zara dress:

Dancing with the stars

2009-01-08T21:32:00.002+01:00

On friday, hm, tomo, the Swedish version of Dancing with the stars starts (Let's dance). I'm really looking forward to it!!! This is one of my favourite performances from the Australian Dancing with the stars two years ago: Kate Ceberano (singer) dancing a jive to the Australian rock band Wolfmothers Joker and the thief.

Perception of women

2009-01-08T21:28:00.002+01:00

I went through my old blog from when I still lived in Australia. I found this clip. It really tells a lot of the Australian perception of women.

Great day

2009-01-08T19:06:00.005+01:00

This tuesday was one of the best days for a while - and that's not bad! It's been some good days lately. Two guys are often included in those days. The good days. Texas my monster dog and C. They were both included in this tuesday.

C and I started the day with hours of Guitar Hero Legends of Rock playing the Co-Career with me on the bas. Fuck it's fun! Suddenly I get thrown back to my first Super Mario or Donkey Kong Racing or Sims. Man you got completly stuck into the games. I'm just the same with guitar hero now. I can't stop playing it, dreaming of it, seeing it everywhere. I had almost lost the belief that my body can improve any longer. But hey it can! In Guitar Hero at least!

After playing we had a terrible noodles lunch. After that we put ton's of clothes on, went out into the snow storm to Texas. We went out with him in almost two hours - playing around in the snow, being all silly. I was laughing so much I barely couldn't stand up. We had some tea with my cousins and then home for dinner. Yeah, C's home. I've realised that I've started to call it home. Just home. Not C's home. Scary. But in a good way I think... I just hope he doesn't mind it...

Photo from Decmember, Texas is a bit bigger now. Photo by: Ekblad/Tollebrant

Makeup

2009-01-07T23:27:00.003+01:00

Hey ya. I got a new project happening. Or starting. I'm excited! The first six models are excited! What got me even more excited is that one of the models is an awesome make up chic! And she has got a blog. With great photos and inspiration also for us who always do the same make up each and every time. Maybe a bit more eyeliner or colour on the lips on parties compared to everyday. Check it: http://bettieli.blogg.se/
My personal favourite of her latest work

2009-01-04T17:39:00.002+01:00

it's scary how quickly your spark of life can just disappear. Hide away. I reckon I'm scared. Scared to start studying again. Scared to get hurt or left behind. My body was filled with joy this morning. One hour later it was all gone and left was anger. It's been six hours of anger. I can't let it go.

Plus Celsius.

2009-01-04T14:16:00.002+01:00

I need some warmth. Sand. Sun. Beach. Water.

I love the weather at the moment, blue sky, snow, cold and frosty - all perfect for photographs and happy moments. But heck it's cold. My skin will soon be turning into transperent skin. Not pale, not white - transperent. Just flicked through some old pics from my year in Australia. My tanned beautiful skin. Let's go abroad! To the sun, the beaches, the WARMTH!

Fornarina

2008-12-28T23:31:00.001+01:00

Shoes. I love shoes. I probably have somewhere between 40 and 50 pairs. And that's after cleaning some out. At the moment I'm trying to wear two pairs in that I haven't used. One pair is my New Year shoes. I bought them a couple of months ago at Fornarina together with a pair of wonderful boots. Both of the shoes with too high heels. Fornarina shoes are the best! If you wanna invest in great shoes - buy a pair of Fornarina, they are worth every single cent.

The new year sandals, 11 cm heal. But mine are just plain black and with white details, no gold or stripes.

monday

2008-12-27T11:47:00.001+01:00

can't wait. since when have i ever been looking forward to a monday? i reckon never. but now i do. i'm so happy with you. why would i ever let you go?

day

2008-12-27T00:39:00.002+01:00

Tonight I've been watching Arn, after a seven hour soccer day. Not really my type of movie. The best part was the song at the end: Snö by Laleh

Living room tables

2008-12-26T01:44:00.002+01:00

Design. Life is all about design. Your hairstyle. Your clothes. Your mobile. Your apartment. Your furniture.

Been looking around for a living room table for a friend tonight. These are my favourites:

Base from Ilva

Fly from EM

Cutest thing alive

2008-12-23T20:03:00.004+01:00

C and I had Texas this weekend again. He's a monster (Texas). But a very cute monster. Why not jump around like a crazy rubber ball biting everything you can reach? Or shewing your leash into two pieces? Or eat a piece of my glove and swallow it? All the time looking completly innocent and extremly cute. Wonderful weekend with my favourites. The two boys that's been my light at the end of the tunnel this autumn. <3
Six months now!

In his basket that's for sure getting almost too small!

From the last time we had him a weekend, the first time Texas saw snow!

2008-12-22T15:01:00.003+01:00

if you're not really here then the stars don't even matter
now im filled to the top with fear, that is all just a bunch of matters

if you're not really here i don't wanna be either
i wanna be next to you

I'm not leaving now

2008-12-22T13:25:00.001+01:00

Dresses

2008-12-19T11:54:00.003+01:00

I love dresses. I don't even know how many I've got. Everyday, sport (tennis/badminton), evening or high fashion dresses. I went to London in July/August this year and went on a mad shopping spree. I bought a dress for New Years Eve - black, silky, strapless, kneeleangth - a real puffy princess dress. But the other week I went to Zara with my friend Tove. My eyes got stuck on this beautiful thing - Tove thought it looked terrible hanging. But when I put it on we both fell in love. Yesterday I finally got it in my possession thanks to my auntie (beautiful birthday present!). Here you have a photo of it lying, it's so sexy on - you might see it some day;) Buttons along the back. So what dress will it be on new years?! What to do on New Years?

Vintage

2008-12-19T11:44:00.002+01:00

Second hand/Pre-loved or Vintage. Hasn't been my thing. But look what I found:

Creation Arabelle Paris from the 70's

Martinette 60's dress

Italian Leather bag

Louis Vuitton - Classic Scarf

Love is noise

2008-12-11T22:03:00.000+01:00

love is noise, love is pain

why?

Without you?

2008-12-09T10:42:00.002+01:00

Talked to one of my dear male friends yesterday. I realized that my life hasn't been the best lately, getting my account emptied, less jobs and so on. But I am still happy and quit calm. At least with you. I'm eating enough with you. I'm feeling happy. I enjoy every second with you.

Last night I slept alone. Alone. It's been a while. I don't like sleeping alone anymore. Wanna turn around and having you there.

Anger.

2008-12-06T16:39:00.002+01:00

The last three-four days I have been getting this aggression to people that I don't even know. It's getting worse for every day. I feel it growing in me. I don't know why or how or what to do about it. I'm getting scared if I should get really really angry on someone I really like/love, someone who dosen't deserve my aggression. I better stay away.

Tired.

2008-11-30T21:40:00.002+01:00

It's time to start training again. It's been a couple of weeks that I havent been sleeping to well and the last three days has been terrible. Need to get the physics happening again to be able to feel good.

Texas is now five months and two weeks and weights about 11 kg. He is getting bigger! My love<3

Changes

2008-11-27T14:54:00.003+01:00

There are so many changes in my life. I don't know if it's wrong or if it's right. And I want you, want you by my side - everything is gonna be alright.

Changes in my life. I won't leave you behind. You're always on my mind. I got you by my side

Leave the past behind. We try to see the warnings and read all the signs. Sometimes you gotta take chances, nothing stays the same but the world will keep on turning

I want you by my side.

Happy Birthday!

Kings Of Leon

2008-11-24T11:08:00.003+01:00

I'm falling. Falling for the rock band Kings of Leon. It's been a while since I got so attached to a rock band. Maybe my house/dance period is coming to an end? This is Kings of Leon:

It's sad but they are blocking all the youtube clips, but if you'd like, I'd recommend you to have a look on the video Sex on Fire. It's awesome. Use somebody is a sweet song as well.

See ya